i regretted yesterday, loads. it wasn't fair to zander so i texted him.
me: hey zander, ive thought alot about this and im really sorry. i had a really good time last night but i dont think im ready to be in a relationship and thats not fair to you. im really sorry i hope you understand.
i felt like a shit person, so i called one of my favourite people.
the phone rang several times before they picked up.
"hey!" she says. "hi kie." i said. "whats up?" she asked.
"do you wanna hangout today?" i asked. "for sure, you want me to come pick you up?" she asks. "yeah sure." i said.
"ill be there in 20" she said. "bye." i smiled.
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i just explained everything to kiara. she understands, and told me i shouldn't feel bad but also i should.
great explanation kie.
"i dont know what to do though, i wanna move on but im hooked on one person who doesn't want anything with me." i sighed. "i dont know tanya thats shit-yep its shitty." she said.
"well.. hm- oh! lets make a pros and cons list!" she said. "a pros and cons l-fuck why not." i said.
"okay start." she says.
"um pro.. super hot." i say. she laughed a little before nodding. "con, doesn't want me." i said.
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after awhile, we came up with a list.
pros:
-super hot
-knew more about me then probably anyone (minus kiara)
-good sex
-genuinely cares
-makes me feel good about myself (most of the time)
-will watch anything i want with me
-smells good
-doesn't wear skinny jeans
cons:
-doesn't want me
-can be very rude
-we fight a lot
-tried to pimp me off to barry
-cocky asshole
-he told topper and kelce about us having sex (started the whole drama in the friend group thing)
there were more pros then cons but some of the pros were just him being hot so i dont know what to do.
"talk to him tanya, if you like him this much, he needs to know." she says. i shake my head no.
as if on cue my phone started dinging.
"speak of the devil" kiara says when she sees the contact name.
i try to hide my smile as my cheeks heat up.
i put the phone on speaker and answer it. "hello?" i say.
"why the hell did i find out about your little boyfriend from kelce?!" he says. "what? i didn't tell anyone.. except kie but i literally told her like now." i said.
"how did kelce know?" i ask. "i dont know he said he found out from instagram." he says.
he did post a picture of us on his instagram story.
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Fanfictionwhat happens when kooks and pogues are in the same friend group? what happeneds when the kook king is falling for one of his closest friends?
