Hate || Marilyn x reader

Past

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Tw: self harm

"...I didn't say anything, I didn't know what I could say. I was just there. It's the least I could do after treating her like this. I still hate her but deep down I know that I don't..."

Y/n pov:
The ride back to the school was silent but I held Thornhill's hand the whole time. She was still crying, so that was my act of comfort. As we arrived at the school I looked at her to see if she was okay on her own "I'll be fine" She said smiling while wiping her tear stained face.

I sprinted to Yoko's dorm and barged in her room "Wtf" She said as she looked up at me
"I can't hang today I'm sorry I have stuff going on" I said panting loudly. I didn't gave her time to answer and ran back in my dorm. I quickly changed into comfy clothes and ran to Thornhill's dorm. I hesitated but decided to knock anyway. "Wait a sec I'll be right there" I heard her shaky voice shout from inside her room. "Thh who am I to listen" I said to myself before I entered her dorm. I looked around searching for her and then I stopped because there she was, standing in her bathroom looking at herself in the mirror. Her eyes were even more red and puffy than they were 10 minutes ago and her face was more mascara-tear stained. She saw me in the mirror staring at her and turned around to face me, my eyes widen when I saw how hard I made her cry. I could see her knees starting to shake more and more before they gave in and she fell to the ground crying. I quickly rushed over to her and wrapped my arms around her, causing her to sob in the crock of my neck. We stayed like this for about ten minutes till her sobs lightened, I pulled away and looked down at her. I was still holding her with one hand, with the other I was wiping her tears away. She looked up at me and blushed uncontrollably, I smiled at this sight.

'Why the fuck am I smiling?'

I cupped her cheeks with both my hands and continued wiping her tears away. No one said anything it was just us, until.. she kissed me. She immediately pulled away and starred at me with teary eyes „Fuck I'm so sorry" I cut her off with kissing her again.

It was a big mistake, it just felt right

She looked at me confused and I fought against the smile that I wanted to give her so badly. I helped her up and walked her to her bed
„I know this is weird and you hate me but would u mind staying for a bit?" I sighed and laid down next to her. I could feel her eyes burning holes in my head but when I turned around my phone blinked up, exposing my wallpaper of me and Larissa two years ago. I unlocked my phone and saw who texted me (pretend it's already night/ evening)

Rissa 🫶🏻
Haven't seen you since morning love, I missed you at lunch and dinner. Hope you had a great day tho good night, love you ❤️

You
My day was fine, tell u 'bout it tmw. Good night Rissa I love u too

I turned off my phone and looked up at Thornhill again "I love how close you are" She said "She's the only one that cared about me ever since" I said smiling sadly "Ever since what?" She asked. I froze "Nevermind. I should go" I stood up and ran out of her dorm "Y/n wait" I heard her call after me but I didn't listen. I slammed the door to my dorm shut once I got in and then I noticed the little note on the door.

I'm sleeping at Yokos and Wednesday is outside in the woods with thing -Enid

I walked in the bathroom and opened my drawer, I got out a blade and felt completely disgusted „I comforted her, hugged her, FUCKING KISSED HER AND ALMOST SPILLED ABOUT MY PAST, what is happening to me" I screamed as I brung the blade up to my arm. I cut deep and traced it along my under arm "I hate her and I still did it. I'm fucking messed up and the worst part is, I don't even try to stop self harming"
I added while I placed the blade on my wrist. A pool of blood started to form on the ground but that didn't made me stop, I just continued slicing my wrist open until.. "Y/n are you in here, please open the door" I heard my teacher say from the other side of the room "Please just go away Thornhill it's not the time right now" I said in a serious tone "Please let me go inside, I'm sorry that was all my fault" I couldn't hear all of what she was saying, because I started to feel dizzy, but I managed to say "It's not your fault please go away now" Before my body hit the ground.

Mary pov:
I heard a loud bang so I ignored my students wish and barged in her bathroom, seeing her bleeding on the floor I began crying at the sight of my girl laying half dead on the floor 'Fuck what did I do' I thought to myself before I quickly rushed over to her, picking her up in my arms. I tried to ignore the blade and blood pool next to us as I thought about what to do. I think I find it the best to go to the infirmary? Yes of course the infirmary am I stupid?

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They took care of her, but she's still passed out. I'm completely broken I've cried for 1 hour next to her bed now, while holding her hand and waiting vor Larissa to come to the infirmary. A few minutes after I called her she barged through the door "What happened" She asked as she rushed over to me and hugged me
"I found her like this, she was harming herself" I cried in her arms "Is she fine?" She asked with a shaky voice. I nodded and she sighed out in relief, she went over to her and leaned down to kiss her forehead "Oww kid you really gotta stop" I heard her whisper against her head. "Go rest Marilyn you've seen alot today" She said as she gave me a warm smile. I nodded and wished her a good night. Then I went to my dorm, even tho I knew I won't be getting any sleep tonight.

Larissa pov:
"You really gotta stop my love, I almost lost you" I cried in her chest "Why are you crying" She asked with a raspy voice "Oh my god Y/n you're awake" I said as I hugged her „What happened" I lifted her arm and showed her the wounds „Fuck I'm sorry Rissa" „Don't say sorry to me darling, Thornhill found you like this" „She did?" She asked „Yes she was terrified" „Fuck" She mumbled „I need to go to her" She tried to get up but I stopped her „No you almost died because of blood loss, you won't be getting up now" „Then bring her to me I gotta talk to her" „I thought you wouldn't like her" „I don't but it's important" "More important than your life Y/n?!" I shouted "YES" She shouted back "What happened"
I asked caring, once I finally noticed the tears in her eyes "Nothing" She said quiet "Y/n I see somethings bothering you, please tell me" "I can't I'm sorry, please just be there for me"
I hugged her immediately "I'll always be there for you darling" I kissed her forehead and hugged her till she fell asleep.

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I guess this was a lil too intense

I know its a lot of weems comfort, if u want me to stop js say it please thank uuu

Anygay, my dad js came back with da milk 💀

Word count: 1375

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