Loving him is Red✔️

Eleven

It was past eight o' clock in the evening when Red came home drunk! I was watching a kdrama when he approached me.

"You still here?"

He sat beside me.

I was silent and ignored his presence. I just don't want to be afraid of him anymore.

"Why don't you leave's here?"

I know his drunk and he doesn't know what he was saying.

"You already experienced how cruel I am to you right? You are free to leave in this house!"

His voice changed

"W-what if I don't?"

I bravely said that but he suddenly laughed.

"Stop fooling yourself! I'm giving you a chance to save yourself from me."

"B-but you are my family."

I feel like crying.

Why was he doing this.

"Family.. Really? that was stupid! You are never part of this family, you're nothing but a trash!"

Damn his words stab me deeply, it's so hurt and I did not realize that I was already crying right now.

It cuts deeper.

"T-then I will never leave."

I shallowed hard when he look at me seriously.

"Why are you so brave huh? You were just like my mom such a fool!"

I look away and just can't stare him more.

"Cuz I don't want to leave, this is my home."

I was about to stand up when he grabbed my arm and made me sat back.

"Fine, let's see. Oh you know what.. since you came, my life becomes more darker."

After he said that he left me.

I wiped my tears.

———————

I was staring at the ceiling in my room, dumbfounded. The painful words he throws me never left my minds.

I could not sleep! They keep echoing in my head.

I got up from bed and go outside my room cuz I feel thirsty but I was stopped when I saw Red lying on the floor unconscious. I didn't hesitate to approach him!

Oh damn! I panicked.

He's so hot!!

"Red! come on wake up! God you have a fever!"

He groan in pain.

What should I do?

I can't carry him.

"S-stand up please."

I was already crying.

He slowly open his eyes and look at me.

"Fuck."

I can feel how he feels right now.

He tried to stand up and I also tried to help him but he pushed me away—

"I don't need your help trash."

Why was he's so ungrateful man!

I can't believe he managed to left me hanging!

I sighed.

I can't help to worry about him despite being so rude to me I still care of him. He is still my brother not in blood but in my heart.