"これが最後かしら (Lord, give me one more chance) どうにかしたいの"
03/06/2023
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it had been weeks since he called the break, and while he still got dirty looks from renjun, everything was just the same as always. there wasn't much he had to worry about with him being occupied mainly by idol life and schedules. it almost as if the memory of huang yujie never existed. he got to the point where he could utter her name without the distaste in his mouth appearing over and over again.
he was content in life and prioritized his career as his saving grace. he often went to take care of his family more and more than he averagely used to. something inside of him called for it almost. he couldn't really identify why that was, nor would he question the logistics of his sudden irrational actions.
he was at peace with himself, and that was more than he could ask for. being able to be aware of ones self again was a soothing story. a story told like a song. a song with a melody of the sky. maybe that's why life was so smooth sailing, why it was so much easier. while he wouldn't say he was over yujie, he could say he didn't need to rely on her for his own personal happiness. the less reliant he was, the easier it got. something along that nature at least.
he no longer felt haunted by the feeling of missing yujie. nor the haunting feeling of being stared down unreasonably. it'd been so long since he even could say that he missed or was worried about yujie. was this the effect of finally letting go? usually you wouldn't get over someone you were so intimate with but here he was after the weeks of having her removed and blocked on everything.
he no longer was anxiously wondering if the female cared or was worried or if she was okay. he didn't wonder what she was up to either. he was so focused on his career these days and his own life that he didn't even consider the female on a day to day basis anymore. it was like their encounters with each other never existed. like it was a one night stand that lasted a minute too long.
"haechan! lee donghyuck! get your ass out your room its time for practice!" groaning, he stretched out of his seat and brushed a hand through his recently cut hair. this era really was one of his peaks. he looked fine, in a narcissistic, egotistical way if it wasn't obvious enough. and he was really feeling himself as a human being and not because the company dressed him like this. yet here he was, going to practice and absolutely killing himself over it.
practice can go suck his entire—
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