Forever Peace

chapter 6

"you're not even that good zea" tito fredo told me.

i know, I'm not that even good pag dating sa school but I'm trying my best to get the grade they want.

"what did you say?" ate sep told tito fredo.

"i said, she's not even that good. tama naman ako, bobo yang kapatid niyo" tito fredo said.

"well, maybe ikaw yon? pinipilit mo sarili mo sa pamilyang to. who the even fuck are you? you don't deserve this family" ate said, defending me.

"wag na kayo mag-away. punyeta kayo" pag-awat sa kanila ni mommy.

kahit kailan ay hindi niya pinagsabihan si tito fredo na wag kami pagsabihan ng ganon. she doesn't care kapag iniinsulto kami ni tito, ate is the only one defending us, si kuya naman ay takot din kay mommy pero kaya niya kaming protektahan kay tito.

"you tell that to your bitch mom" ate sep fired.

"i am no bitch, you are. kayong dalawa niyang ni aizea" aniya tito.

"you don't call lianne a bitch, fucker" she fired back again.

tito never talked again, kaya ayaw kong nagsasabay sabay kaming kumakain dahil ganyan ang nangyayari. ate sep will always be the one who will defend all of us sa kanila, kahit sa mga taong hindi kilala ni ate sep tapos pinagsasabihan ng masama ni tito ay dinedefend niya pa rin. she told me that wala kaming karapatan para mang-maliit ng tao.

after that fight, hindi na kami pinansin ni tito. well i don't really care kasi sino ba siya, hindi ko lang siya sinasagot dahil kay mommy eh. kung hindi ko lang nanay ang partner ni tito ay sinaksak ko na si tito.

i hate him so much, sana andito na lang si daddy. i miss him.

"sorry kanina ha" ate sep told us

"okay lang ate, thanks for defending me" i thanked her.

"well, im your sister kaya that's my job to do" she was smiling at me but i know that was fake, her feelings were hurt because of what tito said to her. hindi kami maprotektahan ni mommy sa kaniya kaya si ate ang gumagawa non.

"kabwisit, kung hindi lang siya partner ni mama pinatay ko na yan" kuya said to us.

may sasabihin pa sana ako kaso biglang pumasok sila mommy sa kwarto. i saw tito's face smirking. hindi bagay sa kanya, ang pangit.

"I'm sorry for what happened earlier" tito apologized.

mommy looked at us, pero si tito, no hindi niya manlang kami matignan.

"I'll be a good father figure for all of you"

"no you won't, if you can say things like that to us pano ka pa magiging mabuting father figure sa amin?" ate sep talked.

"sephire, please wag ka muna sumagot" pag tigil sa kanya ni mommy.

natahimik si ate sa sinabi ni mommy, hinayaan niyang magsalita si tito.

"again, im sorry. hindi naman madaling magpatawad kaya I'll wait for ya'll forgiveness." tito fredo told us.

"pag pasensyahan niyo na lang si fredo, ganyan talaga siya" mommy also talked.

anong ganyan talaga siya? wala akong pakialam.

"edi ginagawa niya rin sayo yan? kaya po ba di mo kami maprotektahan sa kanya kasi po ganyan din siya sayo?" i talked.

"no, anak. fredo is a good person" she talked, nanginginig si mommy. i just know something happened.

"you don't talk like that to you mother aizea. bad fucking child, kaya kayo iniwan ng tatay niyo" tito fredo said.

nanlaki ang mata ni kuya, ako naman ay nakatingin lang kay ate na alam kong sasabog na dahil sa tingin niya kay tito.

"bitches, wala kayon-" hindi na natuloy ni tito fredo ako sasabihin niya nang sampalin siya ni ate sep. that slap was so fucking loud.

"gago ka ba? o gago ka talaga?" ate sep told him.

i saw mommy run to tito, si kuya naman ay hawak si ate, habang ako ay nakatingin lang sa kanila. i don't know what to do, nakakasawa sila.

ate sep was crying, i run to her and hugged her. it was my first time seeing her cry.

"fuck you, you don't deserve to have a f-family. ikaw naman mommy, pano mo kami hindi maprotektahan? hinahayaan mo kaming insultuhin niyang lalaki mo? tangina niyong lahat" ate told them while crying. my heart was so heavy, nakayakap lang ako kay ate sep habang umiiyak siya while kuya was just holding us.

umaga na, my eyes are swollen. hindi sana ako papasok dahil sa mata ko pero sayang naman, makakaintindi pa rin naman ako kahit ganto ang mata ko.

pumasok akong naka-jacket ulit as always. venetia saw me pero hindi ko muna siya pinansin. my heart is just so heavy, gusto kong umiyak nang umiyak.

nakaupo na ko sa upuan ko, i saw theodore smiling at me but di ko na siya pinansin. i can't handle this, para akong babagsak.

"hoy okay ka lang ba, bakit hindi mo ko pinansin. pinansin ka ba ni zea sam-" hindi niya na natuloy ang sasabihin niya nang bigla na lang akong umiyak sa upuan ko. i can't take it anymore.

"hoy gago, bakit ka umiiyak. sabi na hindi ka okay, bak- hala maga ang mata mo!! gago anong nangyari sayo be" pag aalala ni venetia sa akin.

"hey are you okay? wag ka na umiyak" theo comforted me.

wala akong sinabi, umiyak lang ako nang umiyak sa harapan nila. nahihirapan ako sa lahat.

alam kong tinawagan ni venetia si vanessa dahil pumasok ito sa room at niyakap ako bigla. naramdaman kong tumaas ang sleeve ng jacket ko non pero hindi ko na pinansin dahil alam kong hindi naman nila mapapansin yon dahil nakatuon ang atensyon nila sa akin.

"hey, stop crying. magiging okay rin yan, be strong zea" pag c-comfort sa akin ni vanessa.

minutes passed at tumigil na rin ako. kwinento ko sa kanila yung nangyari sa amin kagabi at cinomfort naman nila ako, niyakap nila akong lahat. and i saw theodore's eyes na nagtutubig. arghhh, im too soft for him.

"mga lalaki talaga oh" aniya venetia.

"ouch" aniya naman theodore.

i just laughed at them, these three also knows how to make me smile. i love them too.

nag di-discuss na si mrs.magtala nang biglang hawakan ni theodore ang cuts ko. w-what? he saw it?

tinignan ko lamang siya, nakita ko ang mukha niyang nag aalala sa akin.

"im sorry zea" he told me.

no, why is he saying sorry? wala siyang kasalanan. please wag si theodore.

i smiled at him, hinawakan niya lang yon hanggang matapos mag lesson si mrs.magtala.

he never said that to my friends, we kept it a secret and i promised him not to do it anymore just like i said kila ate sep.

"you're more than enough zea, i hope you know that." theodore told me before we go home.

when i got home, i saw mommy crying. why? what happened?