Like Your Eyes (EN)

chapter 5

"I can only hear a little over ten percent of the sounds, with distortion... ... And I started sign language not long before I told my mother; at first I didn't tell anyone... Did you know that sign language is not universal? That's crazy... and so my medical appointment the other day was for that... I waited so long that I damaged my ears even more... I could have had surgery to basically break that bone and put in a prosthesis... Or I could have gotten hearing aids... But I didn't want to bother my mother who already had so much to do with my father and I didn't want to bother my father because... Because he is the way he is... I damaged myself ... Ironic I know..."

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- "you don't say anything?" Carina asked as she turned to Maya.

-"I was waiting for you to finish," she said after turning.

-"I think that... That it's okay."

- "why didn't you tell me before?"

- "if you had a disability... Would you tell the person who is totally cracking you up?... Knowing that you can find a way that it doesn't show?"

- "I completely cracking you up?" Maya asked, blushing.

- "Maya, that's not the point" Carina bit her lip.

-"I think it is... But I... sooo... I think I understand some things better..."

- "like what?"

- "like the fact that yesterday when we were dancing I whispered in your ear that I wanted to kiss you... And you didn't answer... I mean yes you ran away".

Carina had winced as if she was desperate for what she was hearing.

- "That was... Was that the first time?"

- "that I was... Said that ... I wanted to... Kiss you?"

- "that or... Other"

- "that I wanted to kiss you... Yes... I've probably already talked to you in your ear or when you had your back to me"

- "I'm so stupid... I would understand if you didn't..."

- "wait, wait, wait" Maya gestured forward and took Carina's hand. "You understand that what?"

- "I'm disabled..."

- "you totally crack me up too... I know I need to talk to Jack, but I don't care if you have hearing problems, I want to kiss you nonstop for days... I want to spend my time talking to you like we already do and I don't mind you looking at my lips like you do all the time, even though now I can't decently tell myself it's because you want to kiss me all the time..."

- "don't be so sure of that..."

Maya had blushed: "and I want to spend my time with you. And I want to run my hands over your body, because Carina I have never seen a body as beautiful as yours and you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen."

- "so you... You don't care?"

- "don't say I don't care, because I do care about everything about you. It's that I don't have a... It's weird to say problem because that's not the right word... But I don't have any misgivings, can I say misgivings? Apriori? ... About that... I... Carina, I like you, whether you know the sound of my voice or not"

- "right now I'm looking at your mouth and it has nothing to do with reading your lips... Just in case you were wondering".

-"I can't promise you that I would never try to whisper in your ear that I want you... Or that I wouldn't feel like talking against your neck while you're sleeping in my arms".