Like Your Eyes (EN)

chapter 6

- "It's Carina, right?" He asked without looking at her.

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- "You know what I thought of you the very first time I saw you?" She smiled. "I thought you had the most beautiful smile and the most beautiful eyes I had seen on a boy... Granted, we were only... Six years old... And then the first time a boy in class picked on me, you came to defense me." She wasn't looking at him, but he was looking at her profile. "Jack you are my best friend. You've been my best friend even before you gave me that paper that said 'will you be my girlfriend? Circle yes if you want to and no if you don't' and there were only yeses on the little coupon. You always made me laugh, you always defended me, you always defended my little brother. You treated my skinned knees, you attended all my most important competitions, you were there when I came back, when my father passed away and you supported me, always, you were a big brother to Mase; you were my boyfriend, for ten years, you were the only boy I kissed and the only person I made out with... I've had sex with..."

- "oh, so you and Carina... You've kissed..."

- "Jack..." She said, looking at him. "This isn't about Carina, this is about you and me... You know that last night you came to me and asked if there was anything between me and her... And I asked you if there was anything between you and..." She had turned to the window and saw that Andy was watching them, he had followed her gaze. "...her. I'm not trying to justify leaving you, by the fact that we both like someone else and if you like Andy then I feel less guilty about... Yes, falling in love with Carina.

But you know I don't think it would be fair to you or to me to pretend that I'm still in love with you. Or that you are still in love with me. Yes we've been together forever... But we don't have to stay that way just because Jo married us when we were eight.

Jack, yes I am sad because you are my best friend and in a way I am breaking up with my best friend. But you don't have to leave my life. I'm separating from my lover, not my best friend."

He had turned his eyes to the ocean and Maya was trying to understand his reaction. He seemed thoughtful.

- "I knew this day would come. You were too good for me... You know, I love you."

- "and I love you too. But, I'm not in love with you anymore. And deep down, I think you're not either. You're not in love with me anymore. It's just... Habit."

- "I don't know if you've ever been in love with me... But you know it doesn't matter. I always thought you were the prettiest girl in the class. You never showed any interest in other boys... Or any of the girls for that matter. So I was happy. But when I saw you on that beach that morning with Carina, I knew it right away. You never looked at me the way you looked at her. You seemed hypnotized and I understand she is very beautiful. But since that moment I'm just waiting for, for you to realize... For you to realize that you don't love me, not like that." He had sketched a smile as he lowered his eyes.

"For Andy yes, it's true I like her... And we... We flirt at times... But I didn't cheat on you with her... You know the day after Ryan's party, I saw you and Carina sleeping in each other's arms. And the way she looks at you... I would almost be jealous."

- "don't think I never loved you."

- "Maya you said it yourself, we were seven years old... I was the boy who protected you, your best friend. But you never looked at me the way you look at Carina and I don't blame you. We don't choose who we fall in love with. You loved me because I was comforting, protective. You love her because you desire her, because you are attracted to her."

- "it's not just her beauty... I don't know what power she has over me..."

- "that's why I know you love her, that you really love her... You don't know why you love her. If you had told me it was her beauty, it would have been attraction. If you had told me about her spirit it would have been admiration... But you don't know, that's what makes it really love"