Recently my mother has passed away from suicide. Even though we didn't have a great relationship she was still my moms . We had her funeral last week and after that I've been trying to move on so I would surround myself with friends. Today I was at my gfs house and she went to the store , once she left I felt my true emotions. I started balling my eyes out. I was scared of being alone , I was scared of letting my emotions show.
"mama" jenn said from downstairs . I tried to dry my tears but soon she made her way upstairs
"ma what happened" Jenn said dropping the bag she got from the deli and running towards me on the bed
"shh It's okay, it's okay" Jenn said ticking me back n forward. There was so much I wanted to say but I couldn't . I was crying so hard that i couldnt form words
"I dont know" i Said crying even harder
"I hate her for what she did" I semi yelled .
"I know mama." Jenn said kissing my forehead, still rubbing my back .
"I wish she talked to me." I said calming down a little
"I was such a Bad daughter. If I would have been there for her none of this would have happened l" I said silently crying
"ma Look at me, It's not ya fault aii? None of this is ya fault. You can't control how she was feeling or what she did , she loved you so much mama. Even if She didnt Show it" She Said Kissing my cheek and wiping my tears
"I love u ma." She Said putting me on top of her and laying back
"I love You more."
This was short n ass but I needed sum to post Til I get my damn drafts done💀.
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