Die Young, Dream On

Save Him

Pov: Rengoku

"We're leaving. And he's not coming back until you get your shit together!" I screamed out, and with some part of me hoping that'll be enough for him to come to his senses.
"Go— go right ahead.." he said slurring with his words, due to him being drunk still. I didn't say anything after that. I walked out telling Senjuro to get ready.

"Just get things you need and I'll get the things you want, okay?" I patted his head. "But- Brother! Where will I stay! I don't want to bother you or your friends-"
"Hey. You're my little brother, you never bother me. And so? You're also my friend, my best friend if I should say. And you'll be staying with me, like you should've been. Not here." He still looked upset, again wanting to cry. "But. What if you want to.. you know. Have grown up time with someone and I'm just.. there?" He said, gesturing his hands pointing to the floor to explain what there was. "I don't want to be in the way. And I don't want father here alone either.. Also, just because we're brothers doesn't mean you have to take care of me! " I bent down to his level again. "Listen," I took a breath in.

"You never ever bother me. I love you, you know that. Father just says things, and it's not an excuse, but he's just angry. He doesn't mean anything he says. But I still don't want you here. It's not good for you. And if I want grown up time, I'll just let you go to one of my friends places. Her name is Shinobu. She has three girls that I believe are around your age. But even then, I wouldn't want you to be alone with people you don't quite know." I smiled. I could feel my heart sinking in when he started crying again. "B.. brother. What about- what about father??" His knees started shaking. "I'll figure that out later. Let's just go home, Kay?" I picked him up and grabbed his bags. We walked for about 3 hours to get to my estate. Senjuro started yawning, due to us walking for awhile, I couldn't blame him! Ha.

"This. This place is huge brother!" His face lit up with sparkles. "Yup! And guess what!" He looked at me waiting for me to finish. I whispered in his ear. "The rooms are big too!" "Really?!" He smiled wildly. I smiled back. We walked in and I placed his bags in his new room and told him I had something for him. "Really? But- this is enough! Really!" He was talking about the room. "Nope. The room is mandatory! Also, this gift you'll love for sure!" I handed out a perfectly wrapped gift. "Thank you big brother!" He said with excitement rushing out of his mouth. He opened it slowly, wondering what on Earth it could be. He opened it. Stared at it, taking it all in, seeing it. And it hit him.
"WOW- YOU GOT ME THIS!!? THANK YOU!" He yelled while jumping onto me, causing us to fall to the floor. "Sorry! Sorry! But- THANK YOU!" We stayed hugging and I was rubbing his head. I'm glad he loved it, but I didn't think he'd get this way. He must really love this collection. I'll forever keep this in mind. "Senjuro," he looked up at me. "Aren't you hungry? Let's go eat and get some rest for tomorrow." He smiled, jumping off me, following me to the kitchen. "What would you like to eat?" "Humm.." He thought. "Maybe noodles?"

So, I cooked up some noodles. We ate, talking about what had happened over at the house. I didn't want to. But he was still pretty upset still. And I made him tell me why he had red bags underneath his eyes.
"O-oh. Yea, well.." I looked at him, raising an eyebrow. "It's nothing-" "Don't give me that. Please tell me." He took a minute. Then he finally spilled. "I dunno. I just, like. I started crying and I couldn't breath or see straight.. and."
"And?"

"And I started hitting myself.." Hitting himself? Oh no. Did he have..? "So. You had a panic attack??" He didn't say anything. "Senjuro. You had a panic attack. That's why your eyes have those red marks underneath them. That's why you couldn't breath or see straight." He opened his mouth, but closed it. "No, no. What is it?" "Father says that I'm just looking for attention when things like that happen.." When things like that happen? Has this happened multiple times and no one told me? No one fucking told me. "Happen?" I stoped talking for a second. "What do you mean by happen? Did you have multiple of these when I wasn't around?" My voice started to raise, and I noticed he was getting scared so I tried to calm down. "Well. Y-yea. He told me not to tell you or anyone. He said that I would.. get what I deserve if I told anyone.." What did he mean by that?! What was father doing?! "What do you mean? How so?" He stoped talking. Mouth sealed tightly. Not daring to open it.