Sturniolo Sister - One-Shots!

• the second first attempt • pt 1

Trigger warning:
Self harm, suicide, (knives?)
Madi POV:

It was a normal Tuesday, it was going normal and I chilled out most of the day. My brothers just got back from tour, they finished the tour yesterday. I decide it's about time for me to shower so I got everything ready and got in. I did the usual and as I was washing I ended up noticing one of my old self-harm scars. I looked and sort of hyper fixated on it for a few minutes. Its been months since I've self harmed. I've been going through a lot, perhaps picking up an old habit would help. I have been happier but I miss it so much. I finish my shower get dressed and do my night routine. As I do my routine I can't help but think of self harming. I've been thinking of it for so long that I mind aswell. I go into my room and find my pocket knife. I suppose this'll have to do I think as I gently slice myself. I slowly and carefully slit and slice and as I'm crying more and more and going farther deeper I haven't realized that I've been crying very loudly. I feel my knife get gently put out of my hands and a towel pressed on my thigh. "Shh you're okay, I'm here love, I'm here." I hear my brother Chris say. "I'm sorry" is all I can manage to mumble out. "I'm so sorry Chris I just had to I had to I can't be here anymore Chris I can't-" I say as Chris cuts me off, "I know you are Mads, I know hon." The bleeding should have stopped now... I slowly start to fall asleep, I guess crying does tire you out I think as everything goes black... The last think I hear is Chris yelling "MATT, NICK GET OVER HERE" as everything slowly goes quiet...