❁~ "why so mean fish lips?" ~ ❁

A girl?

~ Aonung's POV ~
It's been a few days after Neteyam's passing. we both will be turning sixteen soon. I just can't get over how I acted towards him before he passed. My father says I should start choosing a lovely girl I want to date now. But I don't want a girl, I like boys but not even another boy is who I want. I want Neteyam. But I know I can't hang onto him anymore because he's. dead. Tsireya told me not to stress it. "Tsireya I have to mate with the girl" "I did not know that.." Tsireya sighed out. She put her hand on my shoulder rubbing it, "you will tell him how you feel about this yea?" "You will be by my side?" "Always brother" Tsireya smiled brightly at me with her beautiful smile as always. "Your smile. It reminds me of Neteyam's smile" I smiled slightly at her. "I miss him, he was my best friend. Still is honestly" Tsireya laughed sadly. I hugged her and she hugged back laying her head on my shoulder while leaning into the hug. I felt water fall onto me and looked at Tsireya who was crying, she sniffed and laughed a bit before talking. "I look silly" she laughed slightly, she sniffed once more and I placed my hand on her cheek wiping her tears with my thumb. "I will be here for you too also wipe your tears" Tsireya said giggling through her tears. I laughed slightly then smiled at her. I breathed in as Tsireya went to go clean herself up. We walked into the living room where my father was located speaking with my mother. Tsireya was beside me and nodded when looking at me. I turned to my father and mother. "Excuse me father?" I said breathing in and out slowly nervous to speak to him. "Do I have to get married so early?" I said sighing out overwhelmed with the possibilities of what his response could be. "Why are you asking?" My father said turning to me. "Well I don't want to get married to a girl." I said shrugging one of my shoulders up fidgeting with my hands. "Well you must son" My father said looking confused as to what I was saying. "After Neteyam just passed only a few days ago I don't really think-" you talk of Neteyam as if Neteyam is the one you truly want to marry.." "No I!" My sister placed her hand on my shoulder. "Aonung just thinks it is too soon for this?" "Well he must make up his mind sooner or later because it is happening." I sighed out nervously and walked out with my sister following me. "He didn't even think about it" I said now getting pissed off by his behavior. "Can't he just listen to me for once like he listens to you?" Tsireya held my hand looking up at me worried about me. "Aonung please calm yourself" Tsireya rubbed my hand leading me to the ocean. "The ocean reminds you of Neteyam yes?" "Why not come here anytime you need to take your mind off of things or just want to relax and think of Neteyam?" She said walking into the water with me still holding my hand. "He was placed in the water over by that way but why not think of him here" she said smiling and spinning around in the water. I smiled as Tsireya stopped spinning. "I am gonna miss Neteyam." My sister said her eyes narrowing. I hugged her tightly, "I am going to miss him too" I said sighing out heavily trying not to cry.
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After at least a whole hour of being in the water me and Tsireya left to visit the Sully's of course they are the ones who have took Neteyam's death the hardest. I knocked on the door Tsireya was behind me. Lo'ak answered and was slightly happy to see us, I'm sure he didn't know how to feel. He smiled before the smile quickly disappeared and invited us in greeting us. They family was sitting down having dinner not saying a word to each other. It looked really depressing. I sat down near their father and Tsireya sat beside me near Lo'ak. "Hello everyone" I said waving looking at each of them. I breathed out getting comfortable in the chair. "How is everyone?" Tsireya said trying to lighten up the mood. I sighed out, "my father is making me marry a girl from our clan." Everyone's heads turned to me as Tsireya rubbed my shoulder. "I am so sorry about that Aonung" Neytiri said frowning genuinely sorry for me. "Oh son, did you tell your father how you feel about this? How do you feel about this?" "I am not happy about it at all, I told him but he shut me down completely not even hearing me out for just a few minutes" "I am sorry about that bro, I know you wanted to marry my brother.." Lo'ak closed his mouth quickly as the words came out. "It's ok Lo'ak I already know" Jake said brushing off the topic and eating. "You what?! You did not tell me about this?" Neytiri said turning to Jake. "Neteyam wanted to tell you when he was ready-" Jake said with a mouth full of food. "Neteyam is gone there would be no point in keeping the secret!" Neytiri said frowning angrily at Jake. "I suppose you are right.." "of course I am!" Neytiri left the room and went to her's and Jake's room. "What's her problem?" Jake said once again stuffing his face. I laughed slightly not knowing if it was even ok to in this case. "It is ok to laugh bro" Lo'ak said laughing himself. Tsireya giggled as Jake looked at us all confused as to why we were laughing. "You are not the smartest Mr. Sully-" yea dad I have to agree with him there" Lo'ak said chuckling slightly as I did too. "What did I do I'm so confused" Me and Lo'ak laughed once again. Jake handed me and Tsireya a plate so we could eat. Lo'ak started to feed Tsireya and it reminded me of when Neteyam fed me once.
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Flashback ~
Neteyam took a piece of food on his fork and held the fork up to me. "Let me feed you" Neteyam laughed picking at me. I rolled my eyes just laughing at him. "No we're in front of your family you moron" I said whispering to him. "Come onnn" he said whispering back. I opened my mouth then closed it when the fork got close. He started to keep putting the food to the entrance of my mouth I turned my head and he continued to put it on my cheek. I glared at him opening my mouth and taking the food. "Good boy" Neteyam said out loud patting my head. "What the fuck Neteyam" I said with food in my mouth.
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I laughed as I remember the moment. Tsireya and Lo'ak turned to me asking why I was laughing. "I just remember when Neteyam fed me food." I said my laughing fading. "Oh I remembered that! He called you a good boy" Lo'ak said laughing. "Brother? I thought you were the dominant one in the relationship?" Tsireya said smirking and giggling. "Well sometimes I can't help but let Neteyam do what he wants ok? If you saw Neteyam through my eyes you would see a beautiful Navi' goddess!" I said smiling. "Woah? A lot of Neteyam praise huh?" Tsireya said smiling and teasing me. "You must really love my brother huh?" "Yea.." "brother maybe you could find someone like Neteyam?" "I don't want someone like Neteyam, I want Neteyam. No one can every replace him how could you even suggest something like that?" I laughed pissed off. "Aonung" my sister said reaching for me. I put my hand up at her turning my face away from her. I held myself with my other arm my face now annoyed and pissed off. "Come on bro don't be that way?" "Don't act like you know me Lo'ak have you lost the person you love? I don't think so, talk to me when you empathize my pain" I said scoffing at him. Lo'ak and Tsireya became quiet.
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