I had spent a little over a year and a half with Luke now, and things had got progressively worse. His verbal abuse had slowly turned in to regular beating. I reluctantly gazed at my reflection in the small mirror positioned on the left side of my room on the white dresser. I recoiled in horror as i witnessed the large blue bruse that tattooed the lower section of my eye. Disifering the best way to cover the ugly mark...no amount of make up would reduse it. My attention turned to the photo that had been taken of me, Larry, Jake and Tom. When i was happy and free. Not living in the fear that the person i loved would contort my body in such pain. After a few more moments of self pity, i reluctantly grabbed my school bag and moved my way to the front door of my house and began my journey to school.
I knew that question would be asked, aspecialy from Larry. He had noticed some thing was wrong, but i had been told by Luke to stay away from him and had only been to band practise twice in the past 4 months and i was begining to withdraw from the out going person i once was, forcing my self to become isolated from the people i held so dear. My family hadn't noticed any thing wrong. The assumed that i wanted to spend more time with Luke. I sighed, gazing up to the winter clouds that swormed the November sky's. The gental flow of the rain landed on my pale face, almost mocking the tears that had not stopped to fall in the previous months. I sighed deeply, calling on any form if courage that was hidden within my battered body to aid me through the mountainous school gates. The hoverd above me, making me remember how Luke towered above the febal corpse that often lay broken on the floor of his room., that i had now become to associate with the reliving end to his seemingly endless torture.
Finally i stepped inside the shabby looking building, a sence of dread filled me, causing an odd sensation in the pit of my stomach. The bell rang, i reluctantly made my way to form that i shade with Larry and Jack. Fortunately Luke wasn't with me much today, but last period was music...we would be alone again. I tried to shake the uneasy feeling away, trying to conjure up a story to tell the boy's so i didn't reveal my current situation to them. I knew it had to be detailed, they always pressured me into giving a recap of my account of events. A fall down the stairs, no i had used that one many times. Perhaps the old "i was hit by a door" i paused for a moments. It was excuse after excuse, i was sick of lying to my friends. The pool of guilt that formed in my heart, bounding it tightly in is snake like grasp made me week at the knees. Inhaling another deep breath, i made my way in the room. It felt like every body's eyes where on me, it was radicals to think that, every one was so engulfed in there own life to noticed or care about my suffering. I nervously sat next to Jack "what happen to you stan lee?" he called out, creating mutters if laughter in our friend circle. "i um, fell over a wire while hovering" i managed to say, hopefully manage to draw them into my lie. "you are so clumsy sum." most of them said in unison. The laughter became little louder, i had done it again, manage to fool the ones i loved and that feeling i had come to know so well returned in my chest. The boys quickly moved on to a new topic of conversation and a sence of relief washed over me. It was then i relised Larry's burning gaze upon me. I looked into his eyes, and hes searched in mine. Looking for answers...trying to find the truth. He was about to say some thing, my eyes pleaded with his, willing him to drop the situation. After what seemed hours, he lowered his head in defeat and i was grateful for it.
Dinner came, i got my tray as usual but i had not had much of an appetite since Luke came along, paying for my meal i walked through the busy hall, spoting all my friends in the far corner. How i longed to join them, careless and content. I thought back to months previous. We would sit around the table, talking about nothing inparticular laughter washing over the noise of the room...my laugh. I can't remember the last time i laughed, not propely. Sure, i laughed at Luke's rediculas and vile comments, in the hope to avoid another beating. I began to rethink, maybe i should sit with my friends. I began to make my way over, a smile spreading on my face due to the absence of Luke's presence. " and just where do you think you are going summer" my name one his lips made my skin crawl as the words oozed out of him. Startled by his abrupt appearance i did not reply. A harsh force came into contact with my hip as he monoverd me away from the place i wanted to be, making me sit at a table at the oppositee end to Larry and the gang. "that's right sum" he said in a hushed tone "just you and me, that's all we need" his words daggers in my ears, each syllable he projects is a violation to my body, making me rigged with fear. I stay silent, twirling the straw that floated lazily in my apple juice. "not eating sum" i chose to ignored him, hoping that maybe he would vanish. "good, you could do with looking bit of weight." weight...a subject he had constantly badged me about for the past Few weeks. I may not be small and petite like the girls you see in magazines, but i was far from over weight. But now, in a morning when sliding in to my size 10 jean, Luke's critic lingered in my mind. But i had never aspired to be an airbrushed pigment of reality, although his words still hurt and further added to the negative outlook i had in my body.
Lunch past with only a few snide comments from Luke and i sat there, as usual not retaliating to his words. English past in a blur, i didn't feel much like talking, but managed to listen to the teacher bark on about some play written years ago. Luke may be controlling most aspects of my life, but he was not stealing my education. I may not be the brightest but i was proud of my achievement. I concentrated hard, trying to emobalis any trace of Luke's actions from my mind. However, the bell rang highlighting that my memories would be shortly out lived. Music was next, and i was alone with Luke. I entered the small room where me and Luke usual "practiced" if that is what you could all it. The sweet melody that i grew fond of hearing when i first met Luke had been replaced by my muffled screams and cries. But still, know one came. I sat there, at the back hoping to make my self gone. Wishing with every fiber of my being that Luke would not come, but i knew he always did. There was know hiding now, the door handle of the room went down, creeking like it always did.
He was here...
*/*what did you all think ? I know its a bit of a boring chapter but i think it is interesting to know the ins and outs of the characters. So. The song for this chapter is every body hurts by avail lavigne. Enjoy *\*
