Zenori: Apart Yet Not Far...

My Heart

🔞WARNING: +18🔞

😞 SUICIDE MENTIONED😞

⚡ Zenubasa POV

"Kuro~" I moaned, I fucking hate this but I crave for him every night. It's all getting too hard to not feel this. And as I begin to just go at it, because trust me, masterbation is always a last option. I hear footsteps, I think I'm going crazy...I miss his touch, I miss him saying my name and that loves me. His kisses are heavenly, like a drug.

I feel so hot and heavy right now. "Fuck!" I shouted as I inserted the vibrator inside. He's such a dirty little angel, have a damn box full of sex toys under the bed. I remembered that he bought them once I started my career, he was lonely. Jerking myself off to a video Menori recorded last year for my birthday. He tried on almost every costume that I got...he looks so fucking sexy.

I love you Kuroja, just come back to me, "I want my sweet master~" I moaned again. I hear footsteps again, I sigh, pause the video and put some clothes on. I go out of my bedroom to see someone leave the house through the back door...I'm not pissed because I saw something in particular, blonde hair shining in the moonlight. Was that my husband!? My beloved sunflower was here!? I rushed down the stairs and went outside. Nobody is there...am I going crazy, seriously?

"K-Kuroja? Was that you my angel? Please just come back to me, I need you my darling husband." I say as I'm looking around, "Kuro-kun? Please stop whatever this is, it's hurting my heart. I really can't go on like this, I love you so much Menori. You know that whatever is wrong with you that it's okay to tell me." I say again just looking around...I guess he left or he wasn't here in the first place.

I sulk and head back inside...why I had hoped he would come back home I will never know. I head back upstairs to see that I got a text from Catomi, "Saw someone around your place. Knowing you, it's already been taken care of. Have a good night!💕" I smiled a bit, I got another text, "My Usamaka finally understands me. It'll be a bit lonely, but the person you love most is always with you somehow. Look for me my bunny rabbit.💖"

...don't know if I'm a dumbass or something, he probably just think I'm one and the same. To him I'm Zenusaki and Zenubasa, he can't remember either name he just knows that there's someone who loves him, loves him unconditionally. Why I just caught on to that now? I'm embarrassed and really feel like a serious dumbass. His health and happiness is my top priority, so I try my best to make sure he's going to be in perfect condition. Him passing out and feeling too weak to leave his bed, it scares me nearly to death.

"Don't know why you need to change yourself, I fell in love with you only. Never doubt my love for you, even when I doubt yours like an idiot. 💖💖💖" He texted me, I love him...I'll never doubt you Kuroja, you're my soulmate. "You're the most beautiful person I've ever met. You're my soulmate, my forever husband.💌💌💌" I texted back.

I'm smiling wide, "I hope instead of nightmares I dream of you, goodnight my honeybee.💖😻💖" He texted me and I texted back to him, "I always dream of you, just imagine me there singing to you, I promise you it'll work. Goodnight my beautiful husband.💌🥰💌" I love this man, and this all just reminds me of what it was like during the times he would be absent from school, he was depressed and just wanted to be alone. But it would barely last a day before he calls or texts me to see if I'm heading to his house.

That's because he loved you before you went psycho...he hates you now remember. Just breathe Zenubasa, just breathe. It's never been too long for you to look for him before so it shouldn't now. He's gone but he isn't far obviously....is he, at the old Hashuma therapy center? I remember my sister Aikime mentioning that before. I just left the house, I brought out my old bike and rode away to the Center.

I need him, my life can't go on like this. I've actually considered relapsing it was that bad. Hit a stop at a gas station, "Very Warm, just take a higher exit." He texted me, so I guess he can't sleep either. Or he knows that I'll have trouble trying to sleep. But what does he mean By higher exit? I have to take the second exit to get to the center. "So which exit am I taking?" I texted back.

"Baby dolls." I got it in response. Baby doll? Isn't that Bebidoru's name? She's about to turn 4. What's located near the fourth exit? I looked up the location on my pho-it's an old mansion? The First Hizuaka Yashiba Manor. That's in relation to my family, anything else? There's a cemetery nearby in that general area. So either an abandoned (possibly haunted) house or a place full of dead bodies (that's also possibly haunted)...

He knows that I hate haunted places, now I need my teddy bear in order to sleep tonight, and I'm a grown ass man. But then I see a chapel that so happens to be near a recently shut down mental hospital. Everything is just really weird...that's the only positive place in that general area..I sigh and get on my bike and once I arrive at the street I fucking made sure to hide my shit. This bike and crap ain't cheap!

Please for the love of God he's at the church/chapel and not the inducing nightmares. "Fucked up to even think that I would put you through some shit like that....baka." He texted me, he's so cute I can imagine him pouting. "Nice ass though." He texted me again, so he could see me... I look around the area and that's when I see a house behind the chapel.

He must be there, "Are close Menori? I don't want to break into someone else's house. Give me a hint or something." I texted him. "You seriously think I would go to a fucking cemetery!? Bitch there's 2 houses, think about it dumbass!" And now he's pissed, "Yes and one of them could be haunted." I texted back, "Fucker, they both have beds like I give a shit!" I got in response. He has a good point.

"You didn't even think about a closed down hospital or maybe the fucking amusement park that's behind you! What the fuck happened to your intelligence!?" He texted me again, okay now he's just hurting my feelings. "Okay damn I'm sorry." I texted back, that stung a lot. I go towards the chapel...I still want to renew our vows, just to see him happy, beautiful, and in tears.