Zenori: Apart Yet Not Far...

Did Something Happen?

⚡Zenubasa POV

What's going on? Did I do something? I woke up this morning to see Kuroja gone, as I remember, he seemed very distant and distracted as of late. And whenever I tried to talk to him, he either ignored me or just seemed so annoyed. Everything was fine, we were happy. I told him that whenever he feels lonely or his mental health has gone completely haywire, he can talk to me and tell me what I need to do to make it all better for him.

He was always on his phone....is he having an affair? Did he find someone else, someone that he considered a better husband? Did he find a way out of our marriage and is filing for divorce? He suddenly stopped looking at me with the same passion and love he used to. Hell he barely looked at me at all, I felt as though he was getting tired of me...I no longer excite him nor do I make him happy.

Did we have problems, yes, that's why I wanted a marriage counselor. I didn't and still don't want to lose my beloved sunflower. I miss his smile, I miss our dates, I miss celebrating special occasions and seeing him just enjoying himself. These children of ours are so special to us, to him and I. So for him to leave and especially without the kids scares me. He would never leave his babies behind...he loves them all to death.

So what's going on? I hear a knock at the door, is it him? It's only been a few hours now, and even though I know that I'm going a bit crazy...I love him. I've called his family, his friends, and our label bandmates. I've reached out to every possible route that would tell me where he is. He just got hired as an art professor at a private college. I've called them as well, but they told me that they were planning on calling me to see why he didn't show up nor answer his phone.

It was Rakoji and Irumi at the door, she came to apologize to us just a week ago and now she's here to see what's going on. "He seriously left without a word." Rakoji questioned, I nodded. "It hurts, I can't seem to find a reason for this. I don't remember what went wrong, if I did anything wrong." I responded to him, "I remember visiting yesterday and I saw some of his paintings. They looked quite concerning to me." Irumi tells me, "He would show me all that he painted and ask me to give him advice or if I like it or not, but he stopped suddenly." I explained to them...this hurts so much.

I see something go through the mail slot of my door, it's a big folder. I picked it up and looked inside, divorce papers!? My heart just broke apart...he wants to leave me. WHAT DID I DO!? WHAT WENT WRONG WITH US!? I'm about to cry, I don't want him to leave me.... I show Rakoji, who is surprisingly a good lawyer, "This kinda looks fake, but I can't be sure." He tells me, "It could come from those guys that are so obsessed with him, and want Menori all to themselves." Irumi says to comfort me I guess.

"What's going on?...where's my sunflower?" I questioned myself, if these are fake, did he get kidnapped? Was he not feeling well so he left to give himself some space. Is he in danger!? If someone threatened him to leave, he must have done it to protect us...he must've been so scared. Something is just not right.

"Just continue on with your day, as usual." Rakoji suggested, I look at him a bit annoyed, "I can't do that, my husband is gone. I don't know where he is, what happened. Our children are worried and scared, asking for their Dad, not understanding why he just got up and left without a word. You know how much I love him, I can't go on with the knowledge that I won't wake up tomorrow morning to see his sweetly cute face. I....I can't. I can't spend my day like nothing happened, I need him here with me. I..." I say, starting to choke up.

"Can you please leave...I want to be alone. Alone in this new house..." I whispered, they both nodded and left. I love you Kuroja Yasume...where did you go? Why leave me, why not say a word, why not tell me what's wrong? "K-Kuroja? Please tell me what happened...where are you..?" I whimpered out. I left my children with my mother and father, I can't take care of them in the state that I'm in...I'll visit them tomorrow. "Those love letters are true, everything that I wrote are my honest thoughts and feelings...especially now..so why can't he see that I love him so much, why can't he see that doing this hurts me."

Something just deep down tells me that those papers are legit...I guess it's the insecure side of me, the side that can't comprehend how someone as amazing and adorable as him could possibly love a monster like me or even want to marry a fuck up like me. Maybe his sister's words are finally getting to him, that I'm not good enough for him. Those years of abuse that I put him through, it was unforgivable..

I got a text from an unknown number, "Look for me...I want you to look for me. Ignore the mail and just be my beloved honeybee.💖" Wait...'honeybee'..'look for me'. That emoji is his signature to tell me he loves me. It's him, it's my precious treasure, "Kuroja, please tell me you're not leaving me. I don't want to lose you, so just put my heart at ease just a little. I'm going insane.💌" I texted back, the response repeats a little, "Ignore the voice, ignore the mail...just look for me. 🫥DNRKGY." What's that? "Menori?" I texted him again, "You're my greatest passion Usamaka." Who's Usamaka!? Is that the guy he's cheat- no it has to mean something..

Right?