Impassioned Psychopath

Chapter 17:Ramon

Rai's POV

I picked up a box I was supposed to deliver and started walking towards the next, I turned to my side and stared at the ocean.

'I can't believe she's gone and I said something mean to her, what if she decides to stay away from the island forever'

'Should I apologize, but how do I get in touch with her'

'It's been a day since she left but it feels like years'

'I feel lonely'

"-ai"

"Rai" I heard Ramon scream.

I flinched making me drop the box in my hands.

"Ramon what the heck" I screamed.

"I've been calling you for a while now, where is your head," He asked.

"Ah"

"Rai let's take a break" he suggested.

I nodded.

I followed him to a corner away from everyone else, he disappeared for a while and came back with two water bottles.

"Are you alright, are you sick?" he asked handing me a bottle.

"Not really. I'm perfectly healthy" I replied.

"Then what's up, are you missing Zack? Where is the guy anyway, he's usually always hovering around you" he asked.

"Zack is just out the gate talking to my therapist on the phone" I answered.

"And the other big guy who's standing by the corner who is he" Ramon gestured his hand and Brian.

"Turns out he is my bodyguard" I answered.

"Then is this about that woman, she didn't show up to bring you lunch today," he remarked.

I clenched the water bottle.

"So it is about her. Did you rekindle your former feelings for her-have you already started falling for her"

"I don't know"

"What do you mean you don't know? What do you actually feel for her"

"Like I said I don't know. Ever since we met, her face is stuck in my mind. I constantly think about her but at the same time being close to her irritated me and made me angry but if she's not somewhere I can see, I start to feel lonely

I thought if I stayed away from her these feelings would eventually fade but they are getting stronger it's beginning to choke me. Not being able to see her for more than an hour, not being able to hear her voice, the very idea of seeing other men flocking around her is tearing me up inside. I want her-no I need Amanda, it's hard to breathe now that she's gone away. I don't know what's happening to me" I explained.

Ramon was staring at me with shock and amusement.

"I was just speculating but you really have changed Rai. Listen firstly it's wrong to have such thoughts that just sounds toxic and unhealthy. She's not a toy that you can calm all for yourself. She's the first woman I've seen treat you like a king, she doesn't even seem to mind that your face is disfigured. Do you really want to ruin it? How do you think she would feel if she heard you say that"