Heartland

Memorial

It has been a few days since the miscarriage. I was doing ok. Sam and my family were planning a memorial. Sam and I were packing a bag. Sam looked at me.. "You ok," asked Sam. "I'm fine," . I zipped up my bag. "Just wanted to make sure," said Sam. He picked up my bag. We both walked out of our bedroom. Sam was carrying both our bags. We walked out of the house. I locked the door while Sam put the bags into our truck. I walked towards the truck. "Babe," . "Yeah honey," said Sam. I started to tear up. "I can't so this," he put his arms around me. He pulled me into his chest. He kisses me on the head. "Everything is gonna be fine," said Sam. He stopped hugging me. I felt better. We got into the truck and headed over to heartland. At heartland. Amy and Georgie were tacking up the horses. Dad walked into the barn. "They are on there way," said Tim. "Were almost ready," said Amy. Georgie looked at Tim. "How is Lexi doing," asked Georgie. "She is not taking it well," said Tim. They all felt bad. "We just need to support her and Sam right now," said Amy. Our truck pulled into the driveway to heartland. It turned out to be a beautiful day. Sam was holding my hand. "Breath babe," said Sam. I was wearing black sunglasses. "Were ok,". Sam picked my hand up and kisses it. He parked the car at the house and we got our. Jack and Lisa walked out of the house. I haven't seen anyone since the miscarriage. Jack walked up to me. He gave me a hug. "Lexi were so sorry," said Jack. "Thanks,". Then Lisa came and Hugged me. "How you doing," asked Lisa. Jack gave Sam a handshake. "I'm ok really,". Tim and everyone came out of the barn. They walked over to us. "Lexi," said Amy. She hugged me. Then Georgie. Then Lou and Peter. Then Dad. After all that we headed out on the ride. Katie was on pogy. And Amy Lindy. Ty was riding besides them. Sam was riding next to me. We were toward the front. "You ok lex," asked Sam. "I'm fine," . I said. But I wasn't. My heart felt like it was being torn out. Sam bought me this new horse which we need to move to our barn. We just started building my office. I am a vet and I was starting my own business. Dad was behind us. "You sure your ok," asked Tim. I was kinda feeling better with the air and the sun. And the view of the mountains. "Yes I needed this," . I said. A hour later we got to the spot. It was perfect. We got off the horses and we tied them up. Sam grabbed a little container out of the bag. "You ready for this," asked Amy. Her and Lou were standing next to me. "Not really,". I said. Lou grabbed my hand. "It's ok were here," said Lou. Amy grabbed the other Hand.

    We all gathered in a circle. "I want to thank everyone for the support we got," said Sam. Lisa was now standing by me. "We do appreciate it,". I said my voice broke. I took the sunglasses off and wiped my eyes. Lisa put her hand on my back. After the memorial we headed back. I was riding towards the back by myself. Dad looked at Sam. "She wanted some space," said Sam. "I go check on her," said Tim. He turned the horse around and headed towards me. I was just riding quietly on buttercup. "Your a good boy,". I said. I patted him on the neck. "Lexi," said Tim. I looked towards my side. "I'm ok dad really,". He just rode next to. Me.