"Why do you make me feel this this way? You're not supposed to."
"Baby, I could make you feel even better."
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Only the day after you realize what happened the night before. You have plenty of time to think about it, as you have no intention of texting Jungkook nor leaving your home. So you spend the day doing what you always do when you're bored: watching k-dramas, singing and cooking your favourite dishes. Today is the famous italian lasagne's day. You also decide to hear from your parents, as you haven't called them in a few days and you miss them.
"Hey mom! How are you?"
"Honey! I'm good, just tired because of work. What about you? When are your lessons starting?"
"In 3 weeks, mom. I must say that I don't mind having some free time after studying so much, but I wouldn't be as bored as now if I had classes to attend."
"Bored? What do you mean? Isn't Jimin there with you, honey?"
"No, he's in Busan. His grandma isn't feeling well."
"What? Really? How dare he didn't tell me! That boy." She almost screams. "I'll go meet him soon. I'll bring food for his grandmother as well."
"That'd be a great idea! Thanks mom. How's dad anyway?"
"He is at work. His boss is stressing him a lot, but he will menage."
"Good. I'm glad you're all okay."
"Sure! Call me when you can. Bye Y/n."
"Say bye to daddy too!"
You spent another day doing nothing. You have received a few messages from ChimChim, but you get the impression that he has slightly detached himself from you. You're not sure if it is because of your recent behaviour, but you doubt it, because everything was fine between you two when you ended the call yesterday night. You apologized and he stopped being a concerned dad. Maybe he's feeling bad and he's not telling you? He hasn't spoken to you about his grandmother's health except for a couple of times since he left. It's only been 3 days, but 3 days are a long time for someone who is very sick.
"Is everything alright?" You type to him.
Waiting for his answer and singing the whole afternoon, it is already evening. Time never seems to pass without Jimin, but music helps you not to miss him too much. Chimmy sings very well and dances just as well. To say that he is good at everything is an understatement. You miss him so much. You wish you could hug him tightly, or sit on the sofa with him and watch "What's wrong with secretary Kim", with your head on his strong shoulder as you always did. For some reason you think about the possibility that this might never happen again and your heart tightens at the very thought.
It's almost midnight and your best friend has not replied yet. You are so worried about him that you haven't been able to write anything in your diary because of him. It's the first time in your life that you've skipped a single day of writing, and this allows you to think about the importance that guy has in your life and soul. You never realized how fundamental he was, and probably you haven't shown him enough how much you love him for all these 15 years long. How can you start showing him now, from a distance? You are really worried about him. He has never been missing for such a long time and you fear he might be going through a hard time without you being by his side. You don't want him to suffer, because you'd never be able to help him as much as he has always helped you. Many people would probably think that he is your father, or an older brother or, conversely, that you are some kind of babysitter who has an overprotective and possessive child to be with, but actually they do not know your story. It all started from that moment when you finally decided to open up to him once for all and show him the reasons for your behaviour towards the others and yourself.
