The day i met you. (Neteyam x oc)

Chapter 7

All i could think about was my vision that Eywa gave me. It can't be true, i try to believe that it was just a dream. But it felt so good to know i had a future, unfortunately with him. But i like to think about the little girl, how her touch was so good. Like a water after being dehydrated for so long. Even though i knew who her father was going to be, and i didn't approve that. I wanted that little girl to be my daughter, but only if the father was someone else. 

I can't have a child with someone who hurt me so badly. His words felt like a blade cutting me up. I turned the other way on my hammock, yet couldn't fall asleep. All i could think about was the vision. I decided to just go to the beach, knowing no one was going to be there. I felt good about being alone, i didn't feel any loneliness. I don't know why. I silently walked out of Tsireya's hut. I still didn't talk to any of my parents or Li'laak, in fact i didn't even see them around the village anymore. 

I don't know where are they, but i don't care. Just as much as they don't care where am i. I walked past the Sully's hut, they were all sleeping. At least they looked like they were sleeping. But i saw one hammock being empty. I don't know whose the hammock is, but the owner is somewhere around the village. I focused on the way to my safe beach. I still can't believe Neteyam heard me talking about my vision, i didn't want him to know about it. What even hurt me more, was the fact that he didn't even care about the little girl. 

I saw someone on the sand. I walked as the sand was putting my toes to sleep. It was always so soft. My ears twitched, i heard silent cries. They belonged to someone who definitely wasn't a woman. It was a man. I walked up to him. The eclipse ending soon, making the sky a little pink. The view was amazing, the clouds were rolling showing the small shine of sun. I touched his muscular shoulder. He quickly turned around. Why was Lo'ak crying? His eyes were full of tears. I didn't know what to do. „Why are you crying?" my words were quiet cause everyone on the island was still sleeping. 

He rapidly wiped the tears that were still in his eyes. His face back to blank stare. „It's none of your business, you wouldn't understand." he said looking at the water in front of him. I don't know why, but i sat next to him watching the ocean in front of us. „I thought only i knew about this place, guess it's your now too." i smiled weakly. He looked at him differently than any other time. He smiled, a sad smile. „I found it the first day we came here, i needed somewhere to think, and this place was just amazing to do that." he smiled and looked around, taking in the beauty of the beach. I looked around too, but when i looked back at him he was already looking at me.  

„Can i ask you something?" he asked still looking at me. I nodded my head. He opened his mouth, but there was no words coming out of it. „Why- why do you hate us?" his eyes telling me he asked genuinely. That was a question that i wondered a lot lately. I knew the answer to that question. His face telling me that he wanted an truthful answer to it. I looked back at the ocean around us. „I hate to know that you just came here and had everything go smoothly. You learn fast, don't cause too much troubles to your guys parents and just make them proud of your any accomplishment while i needed to be the best to just make them say 'that's good'." i finished my monologue. His expression now held the understanding, the same pain he felt was just said by me. 

His eyes held hope, for someone to finally understand him, his pain. He looked at me and unexpectedly hugged me. I felt his tears hit my neck as he cried. „I'm sorry Tselia, i am truly so sorry." he sobbed hugging me tighter. I needed a hug like that. I hugged him back, now also crying. Now i felt the loneliness i felt for the past three weeks. Him and i sobbed to eachother. „No, i am the one that's sorry Lo'ak, i made you feel like an outcast. I shouldn't of have done that, that was fucking wrong from me." i said with my throat closing with pain with every word. He pulled away from me and my grasp. We looked at eachothers eyes. They held so much pain and misunderstanding. „We should head back, the sun is going to start shine soon." he grinned softly. I smiled back at him. „Yes, we should." i agreed to his statement.