The day i met you. (Neteyam x oc)

Chapter 11

Something i will never get about boys is that their anger system. Lo'ak has been on my tail all week, trying to talk to me. I always brushed him off saying that i have something to do, but i just don't get it. First he says hurtful words, ending our friendship and then he tries to talk to me and apologise to me. I don't i could forgive him right now, the way he said some words were like a cut to my neck. I have been arguing with myself if i should forgive his mistakes or not, but everytime i do i ask myself the same question- 'Does he regret it?'. He may try to make peace, but is he doing it only to clear his conscience? I wouldn't know if i don't ask him, and i would never do that. I wouldn't make the first move he ended it, he would start again. 

„Tselia my daughter i am worried about you... you haven't eaten anything in almost a week.. is everything okay?" my mother asked, clear worry in her voice. I didn't even look at her, blank expression on my pale face. Her eyes were glossy, she didn't want to look at her child in that state. „Go outside please.. and eat." she pleaded, biting her bottom lip. I considered her request and nodded my head lightly. I got up from the hammock, almost falling if my mother wouldn't catch me. „Thank you mother.." i smiled weakly. She nodded trying to smile. „Mommy? Tselia! Mommy what happend to Tselia?!" Li'laak screamed, scared for her older sister. My mother was about to say something when i cut her off. „Everything is okay Li'laak, go back to your room. I think Tuk is waiting on you there." i said, my voice weak. She nodded sadly and went back to her room. 

I pulled away from my mother embrace and stood on my legs. I've had the worst time in this past week. Week ago Lo'ak tried to apologise to me, but i just went to my hut. I didn't listen to his apology my heart would just hurt to hear his words, to hear the words he has to say to me. I went outside, covering my eyes with my hand because of the sun. The perfect weather for swimming, and i was right. Almost everyone was on the beach having fun. I even saw Tsireya and all of the Sully's. I just looked at them, and i went to the main hut. My mother pleaded me to eat and i will, i do not want to lose weight. I haven't been eating because i was scared that i will meet Lo'ak or Neteyam there and i would just break down. 

After i saw Foh'la and Neteyam kiss, we have been distant. To the point where we just don't talk to eachother, never hang out or even try to. He has been giving all his time and attention to Foh'la, but never give it to me. I may sound like attention seeker, but you need to give some of the attention to your friends especially cause i thought we had something special. Nobody was in the main hut, only the people who cook here. I politely bowed my head and asked for a plate of fish, they smiled and gave it to me. I sighed deeply and sat alone at my table, slowly consuming my fish. Then Ve'ytiri came in, she had dark eye bags on her face. I frowned and waved my hand for her to come here. She noticed and ran up to my table. „I thought you were mad at me! Don't you ever do that again!" she scolded me. I pursed my lips and nodded. Murmuring a small 'sorry'. She sighed and hugged me, tight grip on my shoulders. „I thought i lost you.." she whispered on the verge of tears. I made small circles on her back and tried to comfort her.

„Shhh, don't worry Ve'ytiri you would never lose me." i comforted to my best friend. She only looked up and saw my dark eye bags. „Oh no, and what is up with you." she said knowingly, serious expression on her face. I shrugged and said. „I don't know.." i looked down to my finished meal. She raised her eyebrow. „Mhm, yeah like i would believe that." she said and i smiled a little. She could always lift up my spirit, even when it is in the darkest tunnels. „I-I ended my friendship with Lo'ak, i could say the same about Neteyam. We haven't been talking for like two weeks." i explained. She widened her eyes, shocked. „Oh um. i see a lot of happend since we talked last time.." she laughed. I laughed with her nodding my head. „We haven't been talking for like three weeks, that's a lot of time and a lot of happend in that time.." i trailed off, lost in thoughts about Lo'ak and Neteyam.