The day i met you. (Neteyam x oc)

Chapter 12

Neteyam POV

All strength i had have been drained out of me, without having Tselia by my side. She was a sun in my now dark life, my very stressing life. And to see her so happy because of my brother hurt not only my heart, but my whole being. I felt as if my body was in flames, burning my whole skin and bones.

I don't know why i'm feeling like this. I have a beautiful girl, the best girl. But she wasn't enough, and Tselia was filling up that hole. Foh'la was truly amazing, she has always been there for me. When my father expected me to be the perfect and amazing son she was there to comfort me when nobody would.

But Tselia was like the brightest star on the sky, always shining no matter what time it was. If it was the darkest night or the most sunniest day. Without her i felt like all of the sun, all of the light was taken away from me. Like someone snatched all the happiness from me. I didn't leave my room, almost never ate, and never smiled in this past week. While my brother never left her side, and the most hurting thing is that our new blossoming friendship was back to square one, we didn't even exchange words with eachother. Never did we stare at eachother as well, it was easy to say we were just friends.  But to me we truly weren't. Our glances at eachother, her touch burning like a blade to my skin. But in that case i loved being hurt, but only by her.

„Son leave your room please. look at your brother.. he has been going out all day. Come on it's not hard.. is it because of that girl? Tselia?" my mother's voice was filled with worry. I looked at her with glossy eyes, but i tried to avoid the woman's gaze. I hated crying, it made me feel weak. Like i can't do anything.That i can't be my father's copy that he can be proud of. Instead I felt useless.

„Oh Neteyam.." she whispered while hugging me tightly. My tears now escaping my eyes. „I am sorry mom.. i am so so sorry i can't be strong enough to not cry.. i am sorry!" i sobbed while screaming the last part. Her hands were making small circles on my cold back comfortingly. I snuggled my face in her neck, i loved my mother's comfort. I couldn't think straight, i felt misunderstood. Nobody ever cared for my feelings, not even my own family. I wanted my own mother to know how i felt, even about Tselia.

„Neteyam you're the most perfect son i ever had, you're an amazing brother and a great friend.." she looked sincerely at me, sympathy flowing off of her tongue. I looked down, still not meeting her gaze. „You're lying to me mom, stop it.." i said weakly. She just hugged me again, and finally saw that her son was not okay. The woman felt guilty she didn't see it before. Her presence was comforting me for atleast ten minutes before leaving. „No mother, please stay with me.." i grabbed her wrist before she could go far away. She stopped in her tracks before sitting back down on my hammock. I placed her wrist on my chest, hugging it tightly.

Soon i start to cry even more, bawling my eyes out. „I- I love her mother! I love... her." i exclaimed and i felt as if the heavy stones on my heart fell. I felt free. She froze before pulling out of the hug. „Neteyam... who do you love?" she said still shocked about my confession. Then i realised what i just told her and widened my eyes. „N-Nobody mom.." i tried but she already knew, and just wanted to hear it from me. I sighed knowing that i can't talk her out of it, cause she will find a way sooner or later to know the truth. „Tselia. I love her mom... but she hates me." i whispered quietly, a little embarrassed.

„You're so blind Neteyam, it is obvious that she likes you too! Come on! You're a really good looking man, go tell her!" she said, bright smile on her face. I smiled weakly. oh how i loved my mother. She was always so precious and sweet to us, but most importantly.. she always protected us. „Mother.. she doesn't. What i am about to say will make you very mad at me, but listen to me okay?" i said to her, slightly scared to see her reaction. She furrowed her eyebrows but nodded for me to continue.