I laid in Jimin's arm. "We should talk about kids." He stated clearly. "And marriage. You told my parents we hadn't discussed that yet."I sighed. I suppose I knew this conversation would happen. "Jimin, I don't know if I'm ready for any of that. I was engaged to Javi."
"But he was awful to you." Jimin furrowed his brow.
"I know he was."
"I'm not like that."
"I know you aren't but Jimin, I'm not ready."
"Can we at least discuss it?"
"What is there to discuss?"
"How many kids do you want?" He smiled.
"Hmm... maybe 1. I don't really want kids."
"I want 3 or 4." He grinned.
"No way. You give birth to them then."
He laughed. "If I could maybe I would."
I giggled. "No you wouldn't."
"No, honest." He smiled.
"Okay whats your next question?"
"Boy or girl?"
"I don't know, healthy I guess."
"Healthy isn't a gender."
"I wouldn't care if it was a boy or a girl. I'd just want a healthy baby."
"I guess that works. Would you want kids with me?"
My mind flashed to his darkness. His soulless black eyes. His sharp teeth. I didn't want my mind to but I imagined a scenario of a toddler or baby pushing his buttons to far and coming home to no baby. "I don't know Jimin." I looked away from his eyes.
"Oh..." he looked sad. "Did I... did I do something..."
"No, no it isn't you." I lied. "I just kids are expensive you know?"
"I can make money." He positioned himself on his stomach, head resting in his hands.
I pushed him lightly. "Thats not the point silly."
"Well, it's true... I can."
"Jimin maybe kids aren't in our future."
He frowned. "Marriage?"
"Ask me these questions again in a few years." I smiled.
"Did you want kids with Javier?" His voice sounded angry and hurt.
I did. I did want kids with Javier. More than anything. I planned a future with him. Until... the baby I lost. The only thing to show for it was Javi's shift in mood towards me, and the empty spare room Jimin's parents were sleeping in. "Can we change the subject?" I sighed.
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The Hybe Bot (a p.j.m ff)
FanfictionA hybe bot named Jimin was dropped off at y/n's door step. He was meant to help with her depression and loneliness, sent from her mother who always has the strangest gifts to give. Y/n's fiance is not a nice person, however Jimin seems to always be...