𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 (𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟) 𝘢 𝘳𝘫 𝘢𝘶

one last time i see evergreen

Ricky's POV

I was sleeping with EJ on the bed, and cuddling with him. I heard a knock on the door. "Come in." It was 4 AM, and Natalie opened the door.

"RiRi, can you wake EJ up?" What? Why did Natalie wanna wake EJ up?

"Sure." I said. I gave EJ a kiss on the lips. "Baby, wake up." I said. EJ opened his eyes and gave me a kiss back.

"Evergreen, he controls me. Was there something wrong with my body?"

"Hi baby, what's up?" he said. He looked at Natalie. "Oh, uh, Ricky. Could you head out just for a second?" he asked. I furrowed my eyebrows, but then left the room.

I leaned on the door to overhear EJ and Natalie talking. "EJ...my friend knows." EJ's hiding something?

"Shit, why? Why? WHY?! Fuck, Nat, tell him to not tell anyone, please." he cried.

"I won't. I promise. Try not to tell Ricky too. He shouldn't have anymore stress." Nat said. What are they hiding? I opened the door. I needed to find out.

"Am I not what you wanted, baby? If I ever tried, if I ever tried, I would for you, baby"

"Hey, you guys done?" Nat and EJ jumped.

"Uh, y-yeah. Nat, you can go." Nat nodded her head and headed out. "Hey, babe."

"What are you hiding?" I asked him. EJ looked nervous, and I could see his hand sweating.

"N-Nothing-"

"Fuck, EJ, stop lying." I looked into his green perilous eyes. I loved his eyes. "What is it?"

"Evergreen, he tears me to pieces. Evergreen, doesn't even have to try"

"I did something really bad, Ricky. I-I," he paused in silence. "I killed Thiago." I widened my eyes, and I started feeling chills running down my spine.

"E-EJ? Why would you do that?" I asked. "I thought you were-"

"Innocent? Ricky, I would never let anybody hurt you. If I couldn't have you, no one could." he said. It's like I don't even know him anymore.

"Babe, this isn't the way." I said sadly. I got several messages from Nini.

Neens 😂

Rickyyy
why r there cops coming
to my house???

HUH????

did u do smth??

no :(
but EJ did 😭😭

what did he do???

he killed thiago, neens
pls dont tell anyone

ricky...

neens?

i think they're going
to arrest EJ 😭

WHAT
OH SHIT

ricky calm down
ricky???
oh shit

"EJ, we need to hide." I said.

"She don't know you like me. She could never love you more, more than me."

"What? Why?" EJ asked. I think the FBI found out or maybe Nat's friend told the police.

"They know." I said, holding back my tears. "Hide in the closet with me." I said. I opened the closet door and hid in the house. I heard the police banging on the door.

"Nina, we know EJ Caswell has been visiting here for this past month." I heard the police officer say. I covered my mouth and started to cry into ej's chest.

"What if this is the last time I ever see you?" I whisper. EJ hugged me tight.

"Am I not what you wanted baby? I cried, I cried so much for you baby"

"It's okay, baby. Everything will be okay." EJ smiled. He gave me a kiss on the lips. I heard the door open.

"EJ Caswell, we know you're here." The police officer said.

"No, no, please, EJ. Don't leave me." I sobbed. "I can't do this without you."

"I love you." EJ whispered. He gave me one final kiss, and then the closet door opened.

"EJ Caswell, hands up." EJ stood up, as I began to cry my hardest. "You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law. You have a right to an attorney. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed for you." the officer said.

"Evergreen, he tears me to pieces. Evergreen, doesn't even have to try."

"No, please, please, please. EJ, please." I cried as the officer handcuffed EJ. "I love you." I can't believe this right now. They started taking him out of the room."NO PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE!" I screamed. Natalie and Nini saw the scene and held onto me. I wanted to run for him. If EJ goes down, then I go down with him.

"Ricky, calm down." Nini said.

"NO, NINI! HE'S THE FUCKING LOVE OF MY LIFE! THIAGO WAS A BITCH." I cried. I love EJ more than anything.

"Ricky, I love you." I heard EJ say.

"NO, NO THIS ISN'T OVER. PLEASE." My legs dropped to the floor, as I cried. I heard the car door close and the police driving off with EJ. "NO EJ?!"

"You know you really made me hate myself. Had to stop before I break myself."

------- ONE WEEK LATER

There's no point. There's no point to living. I can't live without EJ, literally. I haven't even seen him since that day. I haven't been to school in a week. I haven't talked to anybody. No point at all.

I can't even keep up anymore. I just lost myself. I love EJ and he slipped through my fingers like that. I fucking lost him. I haven't ate anything. I hardly had any water. I only get up my bed to use the bathroom. Fuck, I just need to draw the line.

I went in my bathroom and found my razor. I haven't drawn blood in a week. Maybe today is my final straw.

"Should've broke it off to date myself. You didn't deserve me at all, at all, at all"

Lesson for you guys; don't fall in love. It's going to get you into shitty places. I shouldn't have fell in love with EJ Caswell. He's too pure for the world, but I was too dark. He was sunshine, and I was midnight rain.

I turned on the razor. The blazes were moving, and I was scared, but life will be happier. "I love you, EJ. I'll see you soon." I whispered.

I pressed the razor onto my skin, as memories started flashing. Mom, dad, rehab, friends from rehab, Big Red, Thiago, Gina, Jet, Maddox, Nini, Natalie, and EJ. EJ pulling me in towards a kiss. "You deserved the world, love."

I felt the blood pour out of my neck, and I felt my legs falling to the floor. My vision went black.

And I was left in a sunny field with EJ in the distance.

"One last time, I see evergreen..."