Joker (18+)

Joker: Inside the box

Oh fuck you too June. Why do you have to be so clingy? Always following me around like a fucking tail. But guess what I think I love this tail too much. The only thing that stays with me was, is and I think will always be you .

No matter how hard destiny and I pull you away from myself you always creep back into my skin like a slutty leech. I knew you wouldn't dare to look at me, at all costs. Yes, I missed you too. Missed you like fucking hell but I know too that I ain't your Hobi today. I do not deserve you and this distance, is better for you.

I still remember how I had kept bricks over my chest to get rid of you, to walk away from your life. Cause I ain't your warm blanket anymore that can protect you and will provide you the warmth you need. I am the fire that would instead burn you along me.

Atleast, now you'll be infront of my eyes now. It's better than holding you picture to my chest and cry every night. I'll be sure now, that you really are fine.

I had left somewhere far away from your way to the dean not wanting to cross paths again for the day. But guess what, that mothefucking universe, doesn't let's me breathe. The dean asked me to help him a bundle full of papers. I was trying to come up with a short but understandable excuse but then it hit me.

I knew you were going to leave once you know I am here. Leaving you again, almost takes my soul away. You are my soul anyways. I had been dead for so long. You came it felt like I found my oxygen again. I can't let you go again. I nodded and held the bundle and yes they are heavy as heck.

My heart thumps inside my heart. Please be there, please be there, please be there. And yes, the door open and here were you my little angel. The summer to my June.

I saw you freeze almost as if your entire machanism had shut down. Always so cute. Still your knees shake and palms shock at such encounters, won't change at all. A smile crept upto my lips but I quickly wash away. I saw your breath hitch as I kept the papers on the table with a thud. I knew what's going on your head, probably mocking me cause I couldn't look at you.

Yes it hard, it really is but I knew I would fucking grab your wrist and pull you into my arms if I did. I know can't, but I now you'll leave if I don't. I clench my jaw and first before taking a deep breath and looking at the face that I missed to my death.

Those innocent doe eyes that hold the terror of a fucking lunatic. Those chubby cheek that I never found signs of fat, just pure ethereal of an art, impossible by the god himself to recreate. That pale skin is a bit tan now but it just adds on to the beautiful imperfections of yours. Those thick eyelashes and those eyes.

Yet, again, took my breath away. They were always so scary. Scary in a way as an ocean is. So big that can drown you to its depth that will never let you go and yet you want to drown, buried under its beauty. Those eyes were blue, the most faded shade of blue almost like sea green but prominent blue all over. At the edges of the pupil darker shade of blue had outlined those pretty eyes.

Since childhood, those lips had remain reddish pink and plump naturally. Upper lip plump to its head and on the side barely even visible. Lower lip making an 'u' and is red as ever. The typical hairstyle you had ever since I layed my eyes on you. Curly natural red hairs with curly ends resting on both sides of your face.

Still breathtaking, from head to toe. I left, I knew I wouldn't be able to control myself from pushing you into the nearest wall and kiss the fuck out of you if I didn't. I shook my head before leaving to my class. The rest of the day neither I saw you and as long as I could feel neither did you.

I sigh as I dropped my bag on the wooden floor and the floor creaks with every step I take. I crouched down and open my arms ready to feel the impact with my eyes shut. Dodo had jumped into my arms and I giggled ruffling it's golden hair. "Such a good boy aren't you". I saw that naughty dog looking away.