I can never forget the reaction on my mother's face when I showed her my school report card for my first term results. I improved in Mathematics and Science. Those are the subjects I have been struggling with. And I wouldn't have done it without Mr Ncube - he has been helping me study.
Speaking of Mr Ncube, we are officially together and we are still keeping it a secret. I have to say, it's a little hard to be in love and have so much fun but not be able to tell your friend. I wish I could tell Sharon how Mr Ncube makes me feel. I wish I could tell my mother how happy I am but I can't because she does not support this kind of relationship.
Mr Ncube on the other hand has been the best. I love that he respects me even though I am younger than him. He hasn't pushed me into doing something I am not comfortable with. We did kiss though - it was my first kiss but it went way better than I imagined. I thought I was going to bite his lips but he guided me through it. He says he's going to teach me a lot of things. Of course, I asked what those things are and he said I will know with time.
I look at myself in the mirror and smile, happy with how I did my makeup. I tie my braids up and put on earrings. It's school holiday so I am allowed to braid my hair - I got permission from my mother. I check my dress, it's a pink body-hugging dress that Mr Ncube bought for me. He spoils me a lot. I am wearing it today as I am going out on a picnic with him. We are going to Picnic Hangouts.
"Guys I am going out," I announce making my way to the front door. Wandile and Tawana are watching TV. I am surprised they are home today. These two are never home these days.
"Where are you going?" Wandile asks.
"To see a friend."
"How come you always visit this friend but they never visit you? You are dating and you do not want to admit it," says Tawana.
"I am not hiding it either, mom knows I am dating. You two know that I am dating but you just want to accept it."
"We will never accept it but it's your life and even if we were to tell you to stop you would never listen. Just be careful - boys will hurt you if you are not careful," says Wandile and there's so much concern in his tone.
"I am careful and my boyfriend is different. He cares about me."
"They all seem like that. At this age, we are dating for fun, Anesu. Take it from me your brother. I know how boys my age think." - Wandile.
My brothers have nothing to be worried about. Mr Ncube is different plus he is more mature. To avoid arguing with my brothers I answer, "I will be careful and I will see you guys later."
"Can we at least see this boyfriend?" Wandile requests.
I scratch the back of my neck. Even mom wants to see my boyfriend. I can't let them see Mr Ncube. They will all judge me. I fake a smile, "You will see him soon."
I am a liar these days, I am even ashamed of myself. I have gotten very comfortable with lying I even scare myself with the things I make up. But I am certain about one thing, we have all lied for love.
Mr. Ncube is waiting for me as usual. He gets out of the car as soon as he sees me and opens his eyes wide so he can hug me. He envelops me with his muscular arms. His arms feel like home - almost the same homely feeling I get when I hug my father. That feeling of knowing you are loved.
He cups my face and kisses me. That's new! We have never kissed this long in public and he is giving me the tongue. His kisses are making all the blood in my stomach rush to the goddess between my legs. I hold on to his shirt as he deepens the kiss. He is making me crave something I don't know yet it want it so bad it hurts.
