It's a hot summer day......empty roads....I packed my bag and started walking .........The wind was blowing..it wasn't the cool breeze which makes you feel pleasant...it was the hot air...showing no mercy......dry roaring ,dusty .......I felt tired.....so tired.. whatever energy I had absorbed by the dryness around me.as if its a competition who can make me feel more exhausted the weather or My own world.
My world ......makes me wonder is something there which is mine other than my pain ,my tears my broken heart ,my lonely soul....The answer is pretty obvious .....your just got yourself..so be strong...
Strong....how much strong...tired of being strong, tired of being holding up ,tired of pretending all okay,now it's time stop being strong, just collapsed now,let's see how bad it gets ,worst than it's already is,or it's going to go more downhill..let's see how much rough the world to you..so come on pull me as down as possible, at least you enjoy cause I am done being a strong and fighting it all over.
Need a break to soak ,where I am, what I want..? Wait! do I want anything? I am afraid of asking myself that question now,anything i ever wanted never be mine .....so i started give up it already ...moreover I stopped asking what I want.
In the buzz of living life,day today needs, waking up every morning ,running like hell,hidden all your broken part and smiling fake, working for your bread and butter something it feel it's nice I forgot what is broken inside in the world where no one is concerned what is going inside of you.
Just keep running so you can run away from your feelings...but can you run away from them ...you try to get all the materialistic things and cover your sadness, your loneliness..but a moment comes and grab you tightly sooo...tightly you can't escape from it's grip ...it just consume you complety in it's darkness...loneliness....it's only dark and lonely....now you gave up ,and grab that lonely even tightly.....it's surrender ..on my behalf and it's peace all over.
