This is me... Trying to figure out where to go from here...when you won a long battled and now wann relaxed and chilled with people you love ,trust ,you found out they are not with you anymore like a queen won a battled for her people, and she came to know there are no such thing as "my people ".
Then you dont know whether to celebrate your victory or be sad as there is no one whom you can celebrate
The queen decided to brave this time she dont wann run behind someone who choose to leave her ..inspite of the strong urge to be tell someone about how she won the battled, how she loves to do something creative rather than just protecting her kingdom this time. Wann know how they were doing without her,do they miss her do they pray for her ,do they trust her she will win ..or
But now its nothing to say..there is this vacuum she has to face ..she try to pick up the pieces of her past and build her kingdom again..inside the was hurt ,sad ,confused. .a moment always comes she dont wann be brave ...just wann run behind her people and. Beg for them to return to her life..there is a part of every human like a little child it just want what they want irrespective of everything, reality, self respect, logic,planning, beyond everything they just want it.........but then she was a lady cant beg for anyone's love...and you cant get love by begging thats the reality check she got.
So...she is hiding her pain ,smiling and moving forward. .dont know where to go but she dont wann look back now its already hurt her too much..she took the beautiful memories, and try to forgive what must have went wrong..wasn't a easy job mind you, but ,nothing comes easy to her ever,she used to one thing for sure tough luck ..but she is a queen cant cry and beg ,so stand strong with a smile the pain in her chest no one knows ..she knows how to hide her pain and tears now.
