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Part 3

When I was younger, I believed that being a teenager meant I would have a boyfriend who adored me endlessly that everyone got married and had some children. I wasn't sure what work was, but I knew it gave my parents the money to give me for allowance. I thought for sure that everyone was happy; I had known no other emotion. I thought kissing was how babies were made, and that the moon would always follow my car. I was wrong.

Being a teenager meant I made bad decisions which let to tragic endings, and my boyfriend was also my worst enemy. I know what work is, and I sometimes hated being around those people but others made it worth the trouble. I know, sadly I know, that being happy isn't as common like I thought. Millions are so unhappy and yet society has accepted it. I know kissing isn't how babies are made, but it leads to how babies are made and the moon, yes the moon still follows my car.

James was lying down on the bench, his leg swinging back and forth. He was no longer crying, his eyes vacant of any emotion. "James," I uttered. He sat up to great me.

"Adelaide, how are you doing? How was the rest of it?" he inquired.

"It was, well, sad, obviously. I don't think there is a word to describe that whole experience. I just never want to go through it again," my whole body felt like it would be able to hold my weight much longer, my eyelids seemed to be made of bricks, I was drained, tired, I wanted my family back. I slugged my way to the bench and sat beside James, leaning against him to close my eyes.

"It's a messed up world we got ourselves caught in. I don't think our parents were really warning us about people when we were little, they were warning us about the world," he commented. He probably wanted a response, but I gave none. My insides felt barren while simultaneously feeling like and entire elephant was within me. James shifted his arm so that it was behind my back and he began to rub it slowly.

"Why did I think it would be easy? Why did I think that everyone else around me was as strong as I wanted to believe they were? Why did I do it?" by now my voice was merely a whimper.

"Well Adelaide, I will tell you what I know. I thought it would be the easiest thing because living seemed to be so hard, little did I know living was the easiest thing I've ever done. You only hope people would be as strong as you wanted them to be, it was what comforted you to know you were making the right decision. I did it because I thought I couldn't do it, live, anymore. I thought it was the best choice. Sometimes, not knowing the answer is better Adelaide, but sometimes you need to make the answer for yourself," he pointed out.

"James, we have to decide now, you know that right? We can't stay here forever,"

"I thought we decided to find one another in the hospital?"

"So we are going to do it, come hell or high water?" I looked up at him, his eyes were glossy.

"Yeah, we are going to do it," he choked.

"James... Are you second guessing this?" I questioned nervously.

"I'm scared, that's all. I don't want to go back to my Dads place; I can't go on like that if I want to get better,"

"You can stay with your grandparents, cousins, me if you have to. James it's all going to work out, I promise, we will figure it out okay?" I squeezed his hand until he nodded. He took a deep breath, and stood up taking me with him.

"Let's get out of here Adelaide, and get as far away from this as we can get," there was a distant rumbling, the floor shook slightly and then the tracks were put to work. A gust of wind blew by us as the train screeched to a stop making my ears sting from its pitch. I didn't look at James as we got on, I couldn't bring myself to do it, but I squeezed his hand one last time before my vision began to tunnel and blur, and all sense of anything was lost

 (A/N)

This is going to be the second to last chapter and then I'm going to be starting the second book of this and I am really excited and I hope you guys like it, and have liked this book so far!