Unattainable Fruit

Chapter 12: Thoughts & Emergencies

James' POV

When my alarm blares it startles me away, because of course an anxiety attack is the best way to start your day. I rub some of the sleep from my eyes as I move to get up, yawning as I make my way towards the bathroom. I turn on the shower and let the water warm up while I pee, emptying my bladder after a night of holding it.

I jump into the shower as the small room begins to fill up with steam, the little pellets of water hot and comforting as they hit my chest and stomach.

As I start to wash up, I can't help the way my mind wanders to a certain Omega wolf whose agreed to be my race partner.

'It's not like he agreed that he was your Mate or to suck your dick so I'm not sure it's a win.' Sloan tells me, I snort at my wolf, knowing that if given the chance, he'd make whatever crude joke he can. One of the many... charms.. of Sloan. 'And don't you forget it.' Sloan muses happily but I only roll my eyes as the memory of curly brown locks and deep hazel eyes hits me in the gut.

Cody really is beautiful. His olive skin, pink lips and curly hair painting him the perfect picture.

I think about how Cody reacted when I told him my suspicions of him being my Soulmate. The reminder of the rejection makes my heart squeeze, shame filling my gut at the idea that Cody might not even want me as a Mate. I try to block off the heartbreaking thoughts but it's nearly impossible.

Brain- 52, Me- 0.

I sigh to myself as I rinse off the soap from my lathered and naked body. I find myself zoning off a bit, thinking of all the things I could possibly do or pull in order to slowly but surely convince Cody that he's my Mate and that I could be a great one. Regardless of what my father says.

Great. Another point for the brain.

I would happily avoid anxious thoughts, mental instigation and hurtful rabbit holes but sometimes my brain has other ideas which makes for some really insecure and hard days. Not that I've ever been able to really express that. My jaw tightens at the memories of belts, switches and even bare fists reminding me over and over again the way an Alpha is supposed to act. Goosebumps fill my arms regardless of the hot water, and I end up turning it off, the shower no longer seeming like a safe place.

I turn off the water and reach for my towel, drying off and lathering on some lotion before heading back towards the room. I approach my closet and am just about to pick out a hoodie and some jeans when my phone is suddenly buzzing across the room on my bed.

I curse and cross over the space quickly to grab my phone, sliding the button across to answer. If nothing else, at least the humans got the technology right, even if their school system Supers adopted is absolutely soul sucking. 

When I check the screen, I see it's a call form Artemis and I smile, hoping that Earth powered limo would be picking me up. Nothing is faster than an earth faerie driving a car. Those cheeky bastards definitely use their nature powers to give them every day advantages. Even using super speed it can take almost ten to fifteen minutes to get to school. With Art it takes almost five. Without using Super Speed it would take almost an hour. Which is insanely obnoxious. Especially when you're feeling lazy.

But there's no choice but to travel that far. Supernaturals only adopted the human way of schooling less than a hundred years ago so there's only about ten schools in the country. Mostly important figures send their kids to school, Nightlies and regular Supernaturals don't see the point in school so it's a slow rise in Kaulike. Hoping that I'm getting a quick ride today, I answer Artemis' call, putting the phone between my ear and shoulder as I head back towards the closet to continue getting ready. That is, until I hear the unhinged panic and dread in her voice. "Oh my Goddess, you picked up, thank God. Remind me not to ask Alex for fucking anything." She tells me but I just chuckle, knowing she's just irritated the bastard didn't answer her call yet again.