Saving y/n

Part Seven

Y/n's POV: TW

JJ left to walk Spencer to the door and I just slowly got up and headed upstairs to the guest room. Well she says it's my room but I just can't trust it. I know I hugged her and I feel really connected to her and the team. It's just that I can't get too close. Nothing good ever lasts. I noticed my breathing getting faster. I quickly spotted the window. I practically ran over to it and quickly opened it. I saw it had a ladder leading to an alleyway. I ran to grab my duffel bag hidden under my bed. I grabbed the needle and quickly shot the Dilaudid into my veins. I hid the bag back under my bed. I walked over to the window and I quickly climbed out and headed towards the streets. I left without any of my belongings. I just don't feel safe. I quickly ran down the street and eventually reached that lake where I first ran away from the team. It had flowers lining the water's edge. I sit down facing the lake just listening to the soft sounds of the wind. I'm not sure how much time has passed. I was staring into the starry night when I heard leaves rustling behind me. I quickly spun around to see JJ with a worried but relieved expression on her face.

"JJ I-" I didn't know what to say. I could feel the drug starting to begin its effects. Would she get mad and hit me? I think she could tell I was scared because she slowly sat down next to me with a calmer expression. "Can I hug you?" She asked sweetly and calmly. I slowly move away from her. She looked hurt but I can't risk getting too close. We just sat in silence till she finally spoke up. "I found your stuff Y/n" I look at her defeated. I knew there was no way of getting out of this. She must have found everything. I also feel a little betrayed? I mean why would she look through my stuff? Is she going to send me back? Would I like that? I'm feeling really dizzy. As these thoughts raced through my head I began to panic more. "It's okay sweetheart" She pauses for a moment to make sure I'm starting to calm down. "I just would like to know why" She slowly padded a spot next to her. "Please?" I slowly nod and move next to her. I took a deep breath before I began.

JJ's POV:

*One hour before*

I searched the whole house before reaching her room. I quietly knocked on her door hoping not to scare her. "Honey, are you here?" I spoke softly. My panic began to grow larger as she didn't answer. I knocked a couple more times before I entered her room. I immediately noticed the window opened and my mind immediately went to the worse. I tried to keep those thoughts at bay till I finished searching the rest of the room. I quickly looked everywhere in that room till I finally reached her bed. I looked under it and spotted that black duffel bag. I slowly pull out the bag and zip it open. My jaw dropped as I saw what was inside. I flipped the bag over so everything dropped out. I started tearing up as I saw what she brought. Alcohol, Razor Blades, needles, and some veils of something. I picked up the veils that read "Dilaudid". I can't believe it. I picked up one of the needles and it looks like it was recently used. I knew I had to find her quickly. I ran down stairs and grabbed my car keys. I raced down the apartment stairs and got into my SUV. I started my car and just started driving trying to think where she would go. "The lake!" I almost screamed. I headed to the lake where we first really talked and where she kind of ran away. I arrived at the park where the lake was hidden. I turned off my car and quietly walked through the leaves trying not to be scared. I spotted her with her back turned to me facing the lake. I walked towards her accidentally stepping on some leaves. She quickly turned around with a shocked expression.

"JJ I-" she stuttered out. She just looked so afraid. I try to control my facial expressions, I slowly sit down next to her. "Can I hug you?" I asked, trying to be calm. She just looks so hurt. I just want to hold her till the end of time. She looked like she was questioning what to say. I watched as she slowly moved away. I couldn't help but feel a little hurt. I wasn't sure what to say at first. "I found your stuff Y/n'' I just had to tell her I'm glad I found it. I just hope she's not too hurt. She looked almost defeated? I could tell her panic began to grow. "It's okay sweetheart" I paused trying to make sure she would be okay. "I just would like to know why" I spoke softly, patting the spot next to me. "Please?" I felt like I was begging at this point. She nodded and slowly moved closer to take a deep breath.

"I'm so s-sorry JJ" She cried as she started breaking down. I was shocked, I wasn't really sure what to do or say. She leaned into me and I immediately wrapped my arms around her. "It's okay honey" I tried to soothe. I hugged her tight. I'm not sure how much time has passed but I noticed that she fell asleep in my arms. My heart filled with warmth. I knew we couldn't stay here all night but I also didn't want to move. I noticed her breathing going a little too shallow for my liking. I don't want to take her to the hospital and I don't want to bother Spencer anymore. I knew he wouldn't mind but still. I couldn't think, so I decided to pick her up and take her to the car. I couldn't help but notice how light she was. "How often do you eat?" I whispered as I placed her in the passenger seat. I buckled her in and headed to my side. I buckled up and started the car. I started driving to our apartment. While on the road I decided to see if Tara was up. I dialed her number and after a few rings she answered.

Tara: Hello?

JJ: Hey, I hope I didn't wake you

Tara: No it's okay what's going on?

JJ: I know you are not a medical doctor but do you think you could check out Y/n?

*I heard some rustling on the other side of the phone before she answered*

Tara: No problem. You can explain when I get there. I will be there in about ten minutes. Is that okay?

JJ: Yes of course thank you so much

Tara: Always see you soon, bye

JJ: Bye

I hung up the phone and continued driving to the apartment checking her pulse every so often. I arrived as Tara was getting out of her car with a small purple bag. I quickly got out of the car and went to the passenger side. Tara met me with a quick hug. Without any words spoken she opened the door and carried her inside. We walked in and headed up the elevator. We reached the front door and I dug around my pockets for my keys. I quickly unlocked the door and Tara entered first and gently laid Y/n on our couch. "So what happened?" She asked to search around her bag. "She um, well she took some Dilaudid. I'm not sure how much but her breathing feels weak" I spoke fast as my panic grew stronger as I spoke. "It's okay JJ, she's going to be fine. Can you go grab the bottle and what she injected it with?" She asked about taking her blood pressure. I nodded and quickly ran up the stairs. I grabbed the stuff and raced downstairs. I handed her the stuff as she took a quick look. "She's going to be okay, why don't you go upstairs and get rid of whatever else you found?" I hesitantly nodded before going upstairs and gathering everything and hiding it in the back of my closet. I sat on my bed for a couple minutes trying not to cry. I just never realized how hurt she really is. I thought I had a good sense of how hurt she was but I never realized that it was this bad. I whipped a couple of tears that had fallen and headed back downstairs. I saw that Tara was packing up and Y/n was laying down under a blanket.

"She's okay JJ" Tara walked over and gave me a hug. "She's fine, she just needs some rest. I'm not sure how long or how many times she has been doing this but she may go into withdraw." She spoke as she gave me a longer hug. "Thank you" I whispered. She nodded before letting herself out. I locked the door and turned off the lights except one light across the room. I grabbed a blanket and curled up on the chair. I watched as her chest slowly raised up and down. Next thing I knew I was asleep. 

A/n: Another chapter :))) Let me know what you think again sorry for not posting I hope you guys like it <33