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TW:
MENTION OF SUICIDE (ONE TIME IN A CONVERSATION ABOUT HOMOPHOBIC PERSONS, IMPLYING THAT THEY SHOULD DIE)
MENTION OF HOMOPHOBIA AND TRANSPHOBIA
MENTION OF ALCOHOL
MENTION OF DRUGS

august 6th

it's not as hot today, but it's still hot. lev wanted to bake a cake today, and jesse had to drive him to the nearest shop. abby said he loves chocolate cakes.

you were all sitting in the living room waiting for them to come back with the ingredients. when they came back an hour later, jesse said that it was lev's fault, that he had taken too long to choose the right ingredients, saying that it was essential to use dark chocolate and not milk chocolate. and of course, jesse and lev had a fight because jesse prefers chocolate milk.

lev actually likes to cook when others cook for him. so he sits on a high chair and gives the directions. abby breaks the eggs, you and dina weigh the sugar and the flour and owen melts the chocolate and butter.

fortunately the kitchen is big, because jesse keeps standing behind dina watching her every move.

someone has to mix the eggs with the sugar and flour. ellie volunteers, because she doesn't want to be left out. she rolls up her sleeves (her top is very light so she's not too hot), and takes the dish in her hands. her movements are quick and efficient, barely two minutes and everything is mixed perfectly.

'you are good at it' you tell her.

'i know how to use my hands' she smiles.

she would mentally kick herself, why is she so embarrassing? she hopes you don't think her joke is stupid. but she is relieved when she sees you laughing.

if it was a man who would say that to you, you would have rolled your eyes and ignored it. but now it's ellie. ellie's a girl, so for some reason, it doesn't bother you. because she's a girl. or because you like the way she can tease.

and ellie remembers the promise she made to herself the day before. to stay away from you, because you are a real danger to her. so intoxicating and so pretty.

'abby! look! i've received a message for the... you know what' lev suddenly yells and ellie almost let the dish fall.

'the fuck you yelling for, lev?' jesse says as he dramatically puts a hand on his chest. lev looks at abby with uncertain eyes.

'it's okay lev. remember. it's a safe place only if you want it to be' abby touches his shoulder slowly.

'yeah okay. hm, i've received a message for my mastectomy'

'oh that's great!' dina says with the most affectionate smile.

'what does it say?'

'the doctor says i have to wait, because my body is still developing. but he said i can do it!'

abby takes lev in her arms and lifts him up. she almost smothers him.

'i was afraid he wouldn't take you seriously. some doctors are too stupid'

'right, like those who refuse to perform an abortion' adds dina.

'don't say that babe! mel is pregnant' jesse whispers but mel hears him.

'it's fine jesse. but you just because i'm pregnant it doesn't mean i'm against abortion, right?'

jesse stands straight without saying anything. ellie rolls her eyes and you laugh.

'so lev, tell us about you? no pressure of course. but i was wondering how everything is for you' dina asks.

'well, i'm fine now. but it was really hard for me at first, because when people were looking at me, they were seeing someone else, not me. but abby and our dad helped me and supported me'

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