𝗚𝗟𝗨𝗘 𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗚 ᵉˡˡᶤᵉ ˣ ᶠᵉᵐ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

⌠12⌡

august 12th

they finally use the beer kegs tonight. you try to understand how they manage to drink so much beer without peeing. owen drank at least 6 glasses of beer and he is still perfectly standing on his feet. you could see ellie wandering near the beer kegs most of the time, and her body was moving to the rhythm of the music.

she might have smoked a little with dina too, just for a few minutes, or maybe for half an hour. ellie couldn't tell. it was as if time was getting slower and slower. she tried to listen to everything dina was telling her. but the words never reached her ears. her brain could only comprehend the music. so dina sighed when she noticed how high she was.

you, on the other hand, were doing fine with your glass of rosé. you were sitting on a chair, your feet moving at the sound of the music. the light breeze made your hair move a little, and it tickled your skin. the hair on your arms raised as the wind got a bit stronger.

you try so hard to not show your interest for ellie. you definitely tried to not look at her while she went somewhere else with dina, and you definitely tried to not ask where she was. but after a few drinks, ellie's absence was too hard to ignore.

'oh... i felt a drop of rain' mel says as she yawns, and it gets you out of your thoughts.

because at 10pm, it gets a little bit blurred. maybe your fifth glass of rosé is when you realize how drunk you are. but it feels so good. good music and good friends make you feel good too. the alcohol makes you laugh when it is suddenly raining hard. the others try to get the food and the drinks inside, and you try to help too, as much as you could. you grab your glass which contains more water then rosé now.

ellie runs beside dina to go inside. dina reaches the house, but ellie slips on the wet grass, and despite the rain and the night that begins to set in, you still witness her fall. you don't laugh though, because even if you might be drunk, the thought of ellie getting hurt scares you a little. but that might be because of the alcohol, right?

you put the glass where it was, and you hurry to help her. she is about to stand up when she sees you running.

'are you okay?' you yell two times, because the rain makes it hard for you to understand each other. but then, you slip too, and you fall on your ass.

'shit, are you okay?' she yells too.

'no, my ass hurts!' you say, but quickly you start to laugh because you find the whole situation ridiculous. ellie laughs as well when she sees you are fine. it still rains, your clothes are soaked. you are soaked. gosh, just when she thought she could have proper thoughts toward you, she really has to look at you. and it hits her. how the rain gets to touch you, and how what's under your clothes gets more and more visible. just like last night. now she can see your panties through your dress just as she could see your nipples through your t-shirt last night. and it is so wrong to look at you the way she does in the middle of the property, under the rain.

you both are still on the grass because none of you truly want to stand up and go inside the house. because you get the chance to have your little moment with ellie, though it's imperfect. because she gets the chance to hear your laugh, for her and only for her. because it's just the two of you under the rain.

you stop laughing when you see her serious look, and you frown. ellie has to catch her breath when you put your hand on hers to caress it.

'are you sure you're okay?' you ask.

'i can't do this anymore' she says, almost whispering. and you frown, again, because you have no idea what she is talking about. that's what ellie hates about this whole situation: how ignorant you are. she can look at you as if you are one of the seven wonders, you don't seem to notice.