𝗚𝗟𝗨𝗘 𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗚 ᵉˡˡᶤᵉ ˣ ᶠᵉᵐ ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

⌠10⌡

august 10th

the food inside the little boxes on the sand disappear slowly as the hours pass. the sun is brighter than it was when you arrived on this beach two hours ago, and there are more people too.

it is time to put on sunscreen again. ellie watches you handing the sunscreen to abby. she watches the other girl applying the cream on your back. if only you had asked ellie instead of abby. ellie would have done anything to put her hand on your back to caress your skin. you are sitting on the sand and your eyes are closed. abby's hands are doing a good job. but why are you smiling like that? and why is your smile getting bigger when you turn to thank abby?

you don't smile at ellie like that. why is it abby and not her? maybe you like abby more than you like ellie. she knows she shouldn't be jealous, she has no right to feel this way. she has only known you for ten days, and you two are just friends.

she takes the sunscreen abby is giving her and puts it on herself. she tries to apply some on her back herself, but she ends up applying more on her swimsuit than her skin. she can't ask you for help. and she can't ask dina, because that girl will be annoying the second she opens her mouth.

dina is a really good friend, and she knows ellie more than ellie knows herself. so dina has obviously noticed the way she looks at you, or the way she tries to avoid your eyes.

yeah. maybe it was dina who almost forced ellie to send you a message when they were buying stuff the second day. maybe it was also dina her messages in the car two days ago on the way to the amusement park.

FROM DINA:

i can see you looking at her, you know? you should talk to her

FROM ELLIE:

shut up

FROM ELLIE:

what do i say to her?

FROM DINA:

i don't know. ask her to choose the next song maybe

and maybe it was also dina who suggested ellie to watch a movie with you. maybe.

so if she asks her for help, dina will probably tell her to ask you. and there is no way she asks you. just the thought of you applying the cream on her skin, touching her, caressing her. it's too much. she has to endure your presence every night in the same bedroom - and now in the same bed. she can't endure having you behind her, wearing your cute bikini. she can't endure the nastiest thoughts anymore. she can't endure to not touch you. to not feel you.

but god, how beautiful you look.

you two spent a good time together last night. but it's like it never happened. it's as if the i like you and i like you too never happened either. why are you not talking about this? why did you tell her this and then just moved on?

as you lay on the sand, you see ellie standing up and walking the other way. for some reason you are a little disappointed when you see she doesn't sit next to you. you feel like an idiot. especially since you're wearing your prettiest bikini. especially because you're wearing it for her.

she did say she likes you. and you thought about it until you fell asleep. this bikini is the only thing you thought of to impress her. you thought she would look at you even more, maybe tell you it looks good on you.

but she doesn't, because she is too busy talking to a group of strangers sitting near you. and of course, there is another girl, pretty and with the most beautiful body on earth. and ellie talks to her too. you can't hear what they say, but the huge smile on that girl's face and ellie's laugh is enough to know what is going on. ellie must find her beautiful, and that's why she is probably talking to her, not to you. what does this girl have that you don't?