The secret love

Chapter 4

FINNEYS POV

it had been about a week and I hadn't seen Robin eat at all. I was getting worried. Maybe it was nothing. Right? It was Monday and I was still in bed.

"Wake up jerkface. We're going to be late." It was Gwen. "Ok, ok I'll get up" "U better. I'm not being late. AGAIN" she wasn't actually mad, just playing around. She left my room.

I have been struggling, My thoughts have been going everywhere and I can't control it. I don't know what's happening. My thoughts can get out of control and make me think or do bad things, to myself. It's been hard to get myself out of bed. So I have been sleeping in a lot, Gwen doesn't know about this but she always manages to get me out of bed.

I got up, got dressed and ate breakfast with Gwen. Our dad wasn't home as he had already left for work, which automatically made me and Gwen in a better mood for the day. We walked out of the door and headed to school.

I got to school and saw Robin. "Hey rob" "hey Finn" Gwen went to her class and me and Robin said goodbye to her, then we talked about random crap.

"We should get to class, what class do you have?" I questioned the bandana boy. "Science, you?" He answered with. "Awe man. I have math" "haha sucks to suck. Math is the worst" "it's not that bad, I'm just good at it unlike you" Robin rolled his eyes while laughing at that comment.

"Ok, see you at lunch Finn" "yep, bye Robin."  We said as we walked different directions.

ROBINS POV

"Ok, see you at lunch Finn" ugh. Lunch. I don't know how long I can keep up with this. I can't hide it anymore, I haven't eaten in a week. Finn and my mom would notice soon. My mom already has, and try's to get me to eat, but I actually can't eat anymore, like every time I try and actually want to, my body rejects it. I've told her that, and she understands. She says I should take it slow.

It's bad. I didn't mean for that to happen, I just didn't want to eat for a couple days, then I would start eating after those days. Now I literally can't
eat. Shit.

"yep, bye Robin."  Finn said snapping me out of my thoughts. We walked different directions.

Time skip to lunch

FINNEYS POV

About my thoughts and how I felted lately,  Robin is the only one who can get me out of my thoughts.  Robin makes me feel.. safe? He doesn't know about all of this but he just somehow understands.?

Thinking about Robin, I remembered he hadn't eaten for a long time, I was worried. I'm just going to see if he eats at lunch, if he doesn't I'll just ask him about it.

I was sitting at the lunch table me and robin sit at.  "Hey Finn" I heard from a distance. "Oh hey Robin."
I already saw he didn't have a good trey with him. "Robin" he hummed in response. "You haven't eaten in a long time."  He sighed, "I'm just not hungry, I've eaten at home, don't worry" he didn't look me in the eyes while saying that.

After a while of me asking him to eat he sighed, got up and went to the lunch lady. He came back with a good trey and ate it. "There, Finn. You happy" I just looked down. "Sorry. I know your just worried. I'm going to the washroom." I nodded in response.

ROBINS POV

"Sorry. I know your just worried. I'm going to the washroom." I said those words so fast I'm not even joking. I could feel my body rejecting the food. I was about to throw up. I had thrown up each dinner I had with my mom. She told me to eat small portions each day. I was really trying but it was hard. I didn't want to throw it up, my body physically made me. I'm glad my mom understood that.

I walked fast to the washroom, only to look back and see Finn nodded at me. I was not about to throw up in front of him and the whole school. I got to the bathroom and ran to the toilet. I sat near the toilet getting ready to throw up, I knew it would happen soon.

I guess I was there for longer than I thought because right as I started throwing up I heard someone come in the bathroom. "Robin, you in here??" It was Finn. Shit. I didn't answer. "Robin, are you throwing up? Just lemme in the stall" I opened the stall knowing there was no way out of this.

FINNEYS POV

Robin opened the stall and I saw him on the floor sitting near the toilet and his vomit everywhere. "Robin are you ok??" I asked super worried. I kneeled down to look at him. He looked, ashamed.? 
"Finn, I have to tell you something.." I saw his eyes get watery but I could tell he was forcing himself not to cry.

"Robin what is it." I asked, concerned but also curious. "I.. can't eat." I was confused. "What.?" "I can't eat. I didn't eat for a couple days, my plan was to start eating after those days, I just wanted to loose some weight. But when I tried eating again my body physically wouldn't let me. Every time I try and eat I throw up."

I hugged him. "It's okay Robin" he started crying. He didn't like being vulnerable, just like me. So every time he was, he kind of broke down.  "I don't know why I'm crying. I'm being dramatic" "no your not Robin" we just kept hugging. I knew at this moment, I loved Robin Arellano.

A/N I hope you enjoyed🤭🤭 lots happened this chapter. I will write soon, sorry if there's any spelling/grammar mistakes. Also 1007 WORDS🥳