Her Alone

Chapter 3

Prerna's POV

At 7 a.m. the alarm went off, I woke up from my dream and started crying.

The dream which I wanted so bad to become reality. That was 1 year and 7 months ago when all that happened and here I am like this.

It has been 7 months since my breakup and 2 months since I stopped talking to my bestfriends.

Sachit broke up with me on August 21, for a really stupid reason.
Then all I got were my bestfriends but they also left me and started talking to my ex.

They have become really good friends after leaving me.

Well I feel like I am the girl who can't really know why exeryone end up leaving her even though I give them the whole world. I care, love and trust them more than I do for my myself.

These days my exams of my high school senior year are going on and I have science exam next but whenever I see them I feel as if these were the guys who were my friends?

They didn't even support me and made friends with my ex. Although I told them everything of what my ex did still they chose him over me. I never had any problem that they talk to him but I didn't expect that they would leave me.

The hardest journey anyone can experience is:

Strangers<Bestfriends<Lovers<Strangers again

The last stage is when you again become strangers but this time with memories that really hurt as shit.

I got up from my bed and after freshening up I ate my breakfast I started studying as I still have to do 5 chapters.

At night:

"You should sleep now, Prerna" my father told me as it was 12 already and I have to get up at 7 tomorrow so I did as he said.

I wasn't able to sleep as from 7 months I have been dealing with insomnia and depression I can't really sleep at nights and I am always overthinking.

I again started to think where I went wrong. I wanted to forget those days, those memories, Sachit and my bestfriends but I couldn't.

I attended the therapy sessions thrice but then I got a little better so I stopped going there as I didn't really tell the reason of my depression to my parents then because I was scared as how would they react. But now my mom knows everything about them.

My mom sometimes taunt me but its fine as I know she cares for me that is why she does this and only those people who care and love for you will be angry on you for your mistakes although my mom supported me that time but she taunts me so that I won't make the same mistakes again by trusting the wrong people.

But little did she know, I just stopped feeling things.

I can't trust anyone and can't feel any emotions now.
Even if someone is rude I don't feel bad and I am like ok fine and I just walk away.

Maybe this is because my heart is listening to my brain now and wants to walk away from the people first before they leave me.

I also don't open up to anyone now except 3 of my friends Deepika and Kaira. They are my childhood bestfriends and we live in the same neighborhood. And the third one is my school friend Naina who is also my benchmate.

So now I don't have guy friends anymore and also am single.

Although I recieved 2 confessions from boys who liked me but I didn't like them so I rejected them and one of them is my friend from my tuition.

He is a great guy and I am happy as I didn't make him my boyfriend because firstly I was not ready and of course I don't get the vibe of a boyfriend from him I don't know why so we stayed as friends and now he has a girlfriend and I am very happy for him.

I tell Kaira and Deepika all the events of my life from when we were 6. They are my soulmates. And yeah most importantly, they support me rather than my fake bestfriends who left me.

I don't know when I started to doze off and slept.
I woke up at 7 as I slept after 2 days for 6 hours and was fresh after alot of days.

I washed myself and started to study some important things which I left yesterday night and went to school to give my exam.

My exam went amazing as I have always been good in studies. Although my exam went smoothly but the faces of them made me get those flashbacks again and I went in the washroom to control my panic attacks.

After coming back from school, I slept for like 2 hours as I had a severe headache and was also tired after eating my lunch.

After waking up, I watched a movie on Netflix as I was eating fruits.

My mom was not at home.
Did I tell you that I am a great dancer too? Well I am. So I started to dance as I was alone at home.

After mom and papa came back, we ate our dinner and watched the TV side by side.

After that I bid them good night and went into my room. I was happy today as I didn't think about them today.

Oh fuck! I just did🥲.
Well forget that I mentioned them because I am going to sleep as now I have 10 holidays in my next exam.

So guys!!!!! Heyyoooo!!
How are you guys?

Did you like her dream and her present life?

What do you think will happen now?

I will be soon posting the chapter explaining everything as I know you guys must have a lot of questions as to what happened and all. So just wait and stay tuned❤️.

Good night loveyyss!
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Hope you guys liked it 🦋..

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