Sinner H.S

21

Valentine Fitz

It had only just hit me what I had done when I got home to my apartment. The second I closed that door and hung up my wet jacket is when I realized that I had just kissed Harry Styles.

The rockstar, the heartthrob, the man who everyone is obsessed with. The man I hate.

I kissed him.

My fingertips go up to my lips that he had just touched with his own. What is wrong with me. "Shit." I mumble to myself.

That's when I notice a small puddle formed around me from my soaked clothes and hair. I quickly walk over to my bathroom, and throw my wet clothes into the washing machine.

I turn on the hot water, and I quickly jump in and every muscle in my body starts to relax from the warm water washing down all over my cold body. I tilt my head back in pleasure. I need a break, from everything.

I close my eyes and all I can see is Harry kissing me and my heart starts flutter, with that my eyes shoot open. This can't be happening.

I won't make myself become obsessed with him
after one kiss, a kiss that probably he regrets. I always have this thing about getting attached to early, or being obsessed with someone for doing the bare minimum. This is what happened with Kenny. I won't allow myself to make the same mistake, not again.

I turn off the water and grab my towel and wrap it around my body as I hop out the shower. I need to distract myself.

I walk over to my bed and dial Faye's number that she put in my phone a while back. She picks up within 2 rings. "Hi! What's up!" She answers with energy.

"Hey, Faye I just wanted to ask if you want to hang out for a while." I ask. "Are you kidding me? Of course." I smile at her answer, worried she would say no.

"So when are you free?" I ask her to set up a time, I hear her giggle. "What about right now? I'll send you my address." And with that she hangs up the phone. A minute later a text comes in with her address. I put my phone down and start to get dressed.

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I'm dressed in a tight black cropped t shirt with a zipper to show my cleavage, and some light washed green cargo pants. The address Faye had sent me was an apartment complex, it looked pretty abandoned but in good shape. I walk past the front desk with an older man behind the glass window knocked out as he snores really loudly.

I look down at my phone to look at the text again from Faye.

Faye - 8:45pm
Second floor
room 245

I walk up two flights of stairs as I walk down the corridor looking for her room number. There's faint music blasting from one of these apartments and as I get closer to Faye's number the more I realize it's her apartment that's blasting the music. I go to knock but when I try to hit the door with my knuckles it opens slightly, revealing Faye, Niall and a few other guys I don't know sitting on individual couches smoking a joint and doing cocaine. Faye sits on Niall's laps as they both share the same cigarette. "Valentine, you're here!" She smiles lazily as she closes her eyes and opens up her arms for a hug.

I laugh awkwardly as everyone starts to look at me, I walk over to Faye and give her a hug. I look for a place to sit but they're all taken. "Johnson, get off your seat, let my friend sit there." Faye orders and Johnson bites his lip, "I'd rather her sit on my lap." He moves his hips outward and I want to throw up.

"Keep it in your pants, will ya? Valentine don't worry about him. Come sit with me." Faye pushes Niall off causing him to stand against the wall. "Everyone, this is Valentine. Say hi." She introduces and everyone collectively greets me. "Hi." I say quietly.

Everyone gets back to doing whatever they were doing after that. The music becomes louder. I turn over to Faye. "What am I supposed to do?" I shout loud enough for Faye to hear. She smirks at me which only makes me more nervous. "Have you ever done drugs Valentine?"

I shake my head. I have smoked before, but I never done anything that got me high. "Perfect, I'll show you how it's done." She grabs a joint that she had in her hand. "You wanna try?" She asks me and I'm hesitant. "It's okay if you don't want too." She tells me. I came here for a distraction, and doing this might help. I nod, "Sure, give it to me." I tell her and she looks at me carefully. "You don't have too. No one here is gonna think anything." She tells me and I shake my head. "No, I want to do it."

She then starts to light the joint. She first takes the hit, sucking in air from her teeth before exhaling. "Here." She hands me it with the joint in between her knuckles of her index and middle finger. I grab it like how I would like a cigarette but she quickly stops me.

"Don't hold it like that, you'll burn yourself." She advises me. "Take your index finger and thumb together like that." She shows me, she places the joint in my fingers. I bring it to my mouth and start to smoke it. I shut my eyes from how strong it is. I quickly exhale and start coughing.

That was 3 times more puffs than a cigarette ever gave me. "It takes a while to get used too after you've been smoking a cigarette." She comments and I smile slightly. "This is strong." I say weakly and she laughs. "Yeah, they are. You don't have to keep smoking it. I'm happy to take over." She says and I shake my head. "I need this." I tell her and she leaves me be. It takes a couple hits before I'm fully comfortable. My eyes start to burn after a while.

I think it's finally hitting me.

I hear Niall coming out of a room and his brows punch together as he sees me. "You gave her a fucking J?" Niall says to Faye and she smiles. "She wanted it." She shrugs and I smile huge. "Yess, I did." I slur and Niall shakes his head. "Whatever, I'm not responsible for what happens to her." He sits down on the couch. "You never were." Faye says back.

Everything seems more alive, things I wasn't interested in became more fascinating. "I love being high." I say as I stare at the floor. "You're gonna fucking break her." Niall says to Faye and all she does is rolls her eyes.

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It's been almost two hours since I've been here. I haven't tried anything else, just sticking with the joint for now. I check my phone for the time but the numbers keep moving everywhere. I try my best to focus and hopefully they will stay still but there's no hope.

"What's the time?" I ask Niall and he checks his phone. "It's 11pm." He tells me and I instantly stand up. "I have to go home." I say and he looks at me weird. "Why? Everything okay?" He says and I nod. "Everything is fine, it's just I never stay out longer than 12." I admit and he stares at me but thankfully he doesn't question it. "Alright, I can drive you. My car is just downstairs." I smile thankful, before walking out the apartment to go to his car.

I get downstairs and pass the reception and wait outside for Niall. He doesn't take long, once he sees me waiting he points to the black range rover parked in front of me. He unlocks the car as it starts to chirp. I open the passenger seat and get in.

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"Thank you, Niall." I say as I get out the car. "You sure you don't want to walk you up?" He asks but I shake my head at his offer. "I'm fine. Thanks tho."

He smiles before he drives off. I walk up the stairs and go into my apartment. I twist open the handle and I'm greeted with a beautiful scent, I then remembered I lit a candle before I left and forgot to blow it out. I kick off my shoes and go to drink some water.

I head over to my bed feeling extremely tired, I cover myself with the blanket. I stare at the ceiling nothing but thoughts running through my head.

I kissed Harry Styles and got high for the first time all in one day.

What is happening.

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short chapter i know, i'm sorry.
next ones a better.

love,
-a