ENDLESS TEARS

MY BABY BOY 🥺💝

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My knees started going weak from all the tension I had just experienced, but staring at Alex as he paced, I discovered that facing
his wrath would be much more sapping that what I had just
witnessed. I was exhausted though, and was not in the mood to get
into any meaningless arguments with Alex. Watching him pace was
exhausting enough. I walked silently towards my sack with a heavy
heart. I could not believe that I was being separated from my
husband, barely a week into the marriage. Normal couples would
still be on their blissful honeymoon by now, but we are definitely not
the picture of a perfect couple. It felt like a heavy weight had just
landed on my shoulders as I thought of leaving. Why does it hurt so
much to leave Alex despite all he has done? I wondered. I surely
should not still love him after all these! I swallowed painfully as I
cleared my throat.
“So I guess it is goodbye Corper” I said. It had felt so good to
call him Alex in the presence of everyone. But now that everyone was
gone, I decided it best to call him Corper. Calling him Alex now
would create a picture of intimacy and I did not want that because it
would make my exit more unbearable.
“And where the hell do you think you are going to?” he
growled, coming to a stop at my front, making me shiver. Whether
from fear or reaction to his nearness, I could not tell.
I swallowed. “To wherever I can find peace. I want a divorce,
or an annulment since the marriage was not consummated after the
wedding” I said with a raise of my head.
“Oh, so you can rejoice in the fact that you left me destroyed
right?” he asked in anger and chills went through my spine. He
glared at me then paced again. “In case you don‟t know, let me tell
you. „The Bellos Crow‟ is my life. After my secondary school, I spent
four years learning the managerial tactics from my father until I
became an expert, even much better than my father. After gaining
admission, I partly managed the company from school by giving
orders of what should be done, even without being there. The
company grew tremendously until it became as big as it is today. I
would be damned if someone else would take over what I have toiled
for all my life.”
I felt for him. With the way he talked about the company, I
knew instantly that he really loved the company. Though I noted
this, I saw no reason why all these should affect me. Surely the
Senator‟s threat was not real, was it? “I still don‟t see why you are
telling me this” I said to him and his face softened slowly, with
embarrassment creeping in slightly.
“You can‟t leave this house, you have to stay”
I inhaled as anger set in again. “You want me to stay? Sacrifice
my happiness and freedom for you? Just because you want to keep
your company? How dare you?” he really had a lot of nerves. “You
have given me nothing but sadness. If not for this child, I would have
cursed the day I set my eyes on you. Where is Corper Bello, because
this man standing before me is not the man I met in my humble
village” I ranted as I paced too.
A pained expression seemed to cross his features but it was gone in a second. “I am sorry, I know this is selfish of me but please look at it positively. Your parents would still disown you if you leave me and you would have nowhere to go in this large city. You could
stay here instead, have a roof over your head and food also” he started pacing as if he could not believe the words coming out of his own mouth. “It is your only choice cos I won‟t give you a divorce”
I laughed softly. “You think that would stop me?” I asked. “I would rather live on the streets than be a maid in my husband‟s house”
“You don‟t have to be a maid. You would be recognized as the… woman of the house. You would have your own room upstairs, including everything you need” he rasped in irritation.I swallowed. “But there is one thing I cannot have, right? I can‟t have my husband” I said.
He nodded. “We would both live together but have the
freedom to do whatever we like. You have the right to go anywhere and do anything you like with anyone and I also have the same rights. We can be mature enough to manage this situation we found ourselves without inconveniencing each other in any way”
“In other words, you want us to live in the same house like tenants, or strangers, right?” I asked bitterly.
“You must admit that it makes perfect sense” he said.
The drama just never seemed to end. From being a maid, to being a housemate in my husband‟s house. Can life get any worse? I sighed. But thinking about it, the proposition was not totally bad. In fact, it sounded ok. Once I get rid of the ridiculous motion that Alex
would come to love me as much as I still foolishly love him, I should be able to live by those rules. I swallowed. “Ok” I murmured finally,
feeling the last of my strength drain out of me.
He exhaled in relief. “Perfect then. Please ask Tina to show you
to one of the rooms upstairs. There are four rooms there, you can
choose anyone you like” he said in total indifference. I have to go out
now, when I get back, I would give you a credit card for you to use
for whatever you might need. I would also have a lawyer draft an
agreement in order to make this arrangement legal. This would
protect both our rights. I hope this is ok?” he asked and I nodded
numbly. He turned towards the door instantly and was out of the
house within seconds.
I did not know what a credit card is but I let him leave. I have
had more than enough and I needed some space to assimilate the
turn of events. I knew instinctively that Alex was probably going
after the saucy girlfriend but I quenched the bitterness I felt at the
thought. Since I have agreed to this insane arrangement, I would
most likely experience this shit on a regular basis. And the legal   agreement he talked about would definitely give him the legal rights
to do that; I surely hadn‟t seen that coming. I turned on my heels,
walking slowly towards the kitchen. There was only one thing I
wanted to do with the last iota of strength in me.
I got to the kitchen and met the two ladies looking as though
they had just fallen into a ditch. I was sorry for keeping this away
from Tina who had been extremely helpful from day one. They both
looked scared but Tola looked like she wished the ground would
swallow her. There was no mistaking the fact that they had heard
everything. I smiled. “Tola, I want you to select a very good room for
me upstairs, preferably anyone that has a good view of the beautiful
garden. Make sure it is sparkling clean without a speck of dust, do
you understand?” she was silent. I glared at her. “Do you understand
me?” she nodded stiffly and I smiled. “Good girl”
I smiled softly at Tina and left the kitchen. The excitement of taking everyone by surprise vanished with each step I took, replaced firmly by an overwhelming sadness. By accepting this arrangement, I have given Alex the right to hurt me the more. Since we could both do anything we liked, I knew that he would take advantage of that by having as many women as he liked. I closed my eyes and prayed that
I would have the ability to withstand what was to come.
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Two weeks dragged by and the swell of my tummy became visible for all to see. Unfortunately, the only things that saw the swell
apart from me were the four walls of my bedroom and the sparkling furniture that were hung in several places. Alex had brought the agreement, just like he talked about, two weeks ago and I had signed
instantly, wanting to get the deal over with. Ever since I endorsed the document, I have not set my eyes on him. It was not surprising since
I almost never stepped out of the room. I had everything I needed
there; the soft warm bed, the enticing bathroom which I learnt had hot and cold water a fingertip away and a refreshing view of the soothing garden from my window. I initially paid Tola back in her own coin, making her do everything, ranging from washing my rag-like clothes, to washing the bed sheets every blessed day. It was not much work since I learnt that they used a machine to do all these, but
the fact that I was ordering her around was enough to frustrate her. It was not long before I grew weary of this because it was not in my
nature to have people do the chores for me, so I decided to apply maturity by allowing Tola have her space. She was surely regretting
her earlier actions, it seemed unnecessary to add more fuel to the fire.