ENDLESS TEARS

MORE TROUBLE 🤧

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I entered our large house several minutes later. Today had to be
the best day of my life. I was bubbling with excitement. I was having
a baby boy! Wow. The thought was so pleasant. Tina was right. Right
now, all I could think about was clothes. I wanted to buy so many
clothes for my child, and I tapped the credit card in my hand with
excitement. I could not wait to buy tiny clothes for my baby boy.
I opened the door to the sitting room and entered. As soon as I
stepped fully into the sitting room, I froze. Tina almost bumped into
me but I was not looking at her. My gaze was fixed on Alex and the
woman with him. Everything I had experienced during the day
evaporated as I stared at them. I had avoided Alex for several days,
why did he have to show up today of all days? That was not as
annoying as the fact that he was with that lady whore. The very same
one he brought the other day. I wondered why she went back to him
after knowing fully well that he was married. She really had no
shame. Anger coerced through me and I felt Tina touch my arm
softly but I snubbed her. I approached the two people who
apparently were too busy caressing one another to notice my
presence.
I raised my voice. “Like I said the last time, you both should be
sensible enough to restrict your shameful act to the bedroom” I
yelled, gaining their attention at once.
Alex‟s gaze pierced through me and instantly, the agreement I
had signed came to my mind. I froze slightly as I swallowed. I had
thought this would happen but why did it feel like a knife was been
stabbed into my soul?
The girl rose from Alex‟s lap, seeming more confident than she
was last time. She smiled like a serpent as she ran her gaze over me,
stopping on the slight swell of my tummy. I placed my hand on the
evidence of my superiority in the house. She smiled.
“I wonder what Alex saw in you. You look worse than a one
night stand. But don‟t think that because of this thing in your tummy
and that wedding band, you have won” she grinned. “On the
contrary, you have just signed your death warrant because I would
make your life hell on earth. Apparently, I have Alex‟s heart” she
said with a grin and turned to gaze at Alex. “And I have something
else” she continued frighteningly. “I also have his seed growing in
me

The rotation of the earth seemed to stop at that. Alex seemed to
have gone pale. The little witch placed her hand tenderly on her flat
tummy. “I accepted you back because of this Alex. I would have told
you the other day but this thing showed up and shattered everything.
Since then, I decided I would like to have her in audience when I
break the good news.” She paused slightly and then grinned happily,
with her eyes shining. “I am pregnant, Alex”

“What?” Alex looked terribly pale, like he was going to fall sick. I must look exactly that way too, if not worse. My jaw seemed to have dropped to the ground as shock waves sliced through my veins.
Instantly, I remembered her name – Lisa. How nice! Now, I was to be subjected to having a polygamous family? I could not quite
believe it, it took several minutes, or hours but I finally found the courage to close my mouth.
“Yes Alex” Lisa said, jumping happily like a girl who had just been given a Christmas dress. “You are going to be a father, my love” she said to the white-faced Alex.
I could not stand this. My legs almost unbuckled beneath me.
This was just too much. In fact, I had been dealing with „too much‟ of everything since I met Alex. How could I have been stupid enough to fall in love with this man? Yeah, you can‟t tell the heart who to love,
but as I thought about it, I realized just how unfair that was. Why shouldn‟t I be able to dictate who I fall in love with? It was just so
unfair. How many more people would get pregnant through this
man? Tears spilled down my eyes. I looked at Alex who still hasn‟t
been able to utter a single word.
“What on earth did I do to deserve this Corper” I cried out in agony. “You should have just put a knife through my chest instead of this slow torture you are putting me through” I fought for control but
found none. Alex sat looking spineless, like he was in a state of shock.
“Well, you have another baby in the making, congratulations daddy.
It seems you are now a baby-making factory”
I turned and almost tripped as I ran upstairs. The tears blinded
my gaze but I just let my legs lead the way as I raced into my room. I
slammed the door violently behind me and collapsed against the
door, crying my eyes out. “Oh God” I cried. Why me? We have been
ordered not to question God but all I have in my head is loads of  unanswered questions. Now, there was no doubt in my mind that I
had lost Alex. My Alex is dead and all I have left is a complete
womanizing stranger. Would they also get married? I swallowed
hard as the possibility came to view. Oh no, this is definitely a living
nightmare.
I dragged myself to the bed as depression set in. where the hell
were my parents? I should have left when I had the chance. I should
not have allowed Alex to change my mind with tempting incentives.
I should have known that nothing good comes out of the lion‟s den.
As I sobbed quietly into the pillow, I heard a knock. Without
studying the knock pattern, I knew it was Tina. “I don‟t want
anything Tina, please go away” I said with little or no strength. The
door opened and I turned to glare at her. I knew she would not listen.
That is the price I had to pay for having her close to me. “I said I
don‟t need anything” I yelled.
She looked so sad and sympathetic. “But you would need the
company” she said.
“I don‟t need anything. ANYTHING. Leave me alone Tina” I barked.
She swallowed and moved towards me instead of going out.
Oh Crap! I just never get what I want, do i? I just wanted to die.
She sat beside my head and the expression on my face was
enough to make me cry all over again. “You can get me fired afterwards but I won‟t leave you to wallow in pain.” She said softly.
Her words made me cry anew and she pulled me till my head was on her laps. She ran her fingers through my packed hair as she whispered consolatory words.
“What did I ever do to deserve this torture Tina? What?” I cried, like she had the answer to that. “If I hadn‟t slept with Alex, my life would be in shape now. I am the only cause of my problems. Me.
Only me. I wish I would just die”

“Shhh… Don‟t say that.” Tina whispered. “A wise man once told me that if we continue to blame ourselves for our past mistakes,
we would be making another mistake. We all make mistakes but we must get past them and move on. I know you can” she whispered.
I could not measure my level of respect for her then but I was totally shattered. “I can‟t. I feel trapped and helpless.”
“Yes you can” She said strongly. “I know you can. Think about your baby. Your adorable baby boy. He is relying on your strength;
you can‟t afford to fail him. You can do this” she whispered. The mention of my baby instantly got my attention. Tina was absolutely right. I could not afford to despair, not when my depression could
affect my baby. “Whenever Mr. Alex gives you a reason to be sad, just think about your child.” She whispered.
I controlled my sob until I was left with a few sniffs. “Thanks Tina. I don‟t know what I would have done without you” I said.
“I am here to help ma‟am. You would be fine”
I smiled surprisingly. “Do you think you could ever call me Amara?” I asked.
I felt her smile without seeing her. “I don‟t know”

T.b.c

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