Before I Die || Dnf Fanfiction

{~Chapter thirteen~}

TW:
- SUÏCIDE

GEORGE POV:

The wind was rushing through my hair and the sounds of waves crashed into my ears.
I was standing on the edge of the cliffs, looking down at the water and rocks below.
This was gonna be it…
I was going to leave this world behind, after all its torture and pain it had given me throughout my life.
Somewhere deep down I felt bad for Dream and Karl. They didn’t really deserve this. But I was never going to be able to be around them as long as Sapnap and Punz were near.
Maybe in another time it would have worked out. But not here.
I hoped Karl would find the letters and give them to the right people….
I hoped he wasn’t too sad about it.
I hoped Dream wouldn’t blame himself.
Slowly I looked down again at the rocks. Would it be hard when I landed? Would I feel it? Maybe my brain would shut off before I hit the ground?

I looked back at the spot where Dream and I had been sitting not even 24 hours ago. Was this really the only way?
Dream had said it would be okay, but would it?
Sapnap and Punz hated me, there was no way they were going to like me, right?
Dream promised to protect me… Would he maybe save me now?
Would he come over here and take me away from the edge?
‘If he was going to save you, he would have been here by now.’ The voice in my head said.
Slowly I started to shake. Suddenly I was scared to jump. Was this really what I wanted?

I heard a car stop with screeching tires. Doors opened and got closed really quick.
One part of my brain jumped from happiness. That must be Dream! He was coming to save me!
The other part cursed. We had to do it and we had to do it now.
But I was too scared to let myself fall.
For some dumb, dumb reason I turned around, my back now facing the edge of the cliff.
I saw Dream running up to me, Sapnap and Punz close behind.
“GEORGE! GEORGE, PLEASE DON’T DO IT.” Dream begged as he kept on running towards me.
“WE CAN HELP YOU! I CAN HELP YOU! PLEASE, GEORGE STEP AWAY FROM THE CLIFF.”
‘Remember your wish to know how it felt to be a bird? Go on, let yourself fall. Let the air catch you. And maybe, maybe if Dream really loves you, he will find a way to catch you.’ The voice in my head taunted.

I took a deep breath. I closed my eyes. Spread my arms. And let myself fall backwards.
Immediately I heard the wind rush past me. And I heard Dream let out an agonizing scream.
“GEORGE! NO! PLEASE! PUNZ, LET ME GO! I NEED TO SAVE HIM!”
It felt like time had stopped. I only felt the wind and I felt weightless.

And then my back hit the ground. Hard. I heard a sickening crack and suddenly my entire body was in pain. I wanted to scream, but it felt like I had no air in my lungs.
I was supposed to die from this? Why am I not dead? This was not supposed to happen. I was supposed to be gone immediately.
I started to panic.
I couldn’t feel my legs, everything hurt.
I started to feel light-headed.
I tried to get my eyes open, but the second I opened my eyes everything was doubled and turning before my eyes.
I quickly closed my eyes again and not much later I completely blacked out.