The Protector (EarthMix AU)

Chapter 10

Triggered warnings: Mature contents, sexual descriptive

Tian

I could only lay there as Phupha kissed me, because much like the day before when he'd gotten me off in the bathroom, I felt completely boneless.

My arms ached from the strain of being braced above my head, but I didn't care if it meant I could get more of Phupha kissing me like this... like I was more that just a convenient body.

I had no idea if that what I was or not, but I'd reached the conclusion that I would take whatever I could get as soon as I'd known that walking away from Phupha tonight meant it would be over for good.

Part of me really had believed he wasn't really seeing me as he touched and kissed me. I'd had this sick fear that he'd say my brother's name as he made love to me but to hear my name fall from his lips... it was a thousand times better than the mind blowing orgasm he'd just given me.

I am nervous and worried as he was kneeling between my spread legs with condom and lube in hands. I figured he would just open me up and started pushing into me but he surprised me again by dropping his weight back down on my body and kissing me.

I was lost in the sensation of his tongue dancing with mine so I barely noticed the cool lube being spread over my hole. It wasn't until his finger began probing me that I realized he was distracting me with the pleasure his mouth was bringing me. And it was at that exact moment that I realized the childhood love I'd had for this man had never disappeared and it never would.

It had morphed into something deeper and scarier and that conclusion was more terrifying than the change my body was about to go through. Because Phupha wasn't about to just take my virginity; he was going to take everything else too.

Phupha kissing me to ease me, when he released my lips, it was only so he could settle his mouth next to my ear.

"I've dreamed of this moment," he said, his rumbly voice barely a whisper.
"It's kept me awake at night... wondering what it would feel like to be buried inside of you. Wondering if I'd survive it."

"Survive what?" I managed to ask even as I felt his fingers sink deeper into me.

"Knowing your body was made for mine and mine for yours... a perfect fit."

I didn't get a chance to respond because he was kissing me again and his fingers continue to do it things.

Phupha released me so that he could sit up and search out the discarded condom. Seeing how big his engorged cock had me squirming both with nerves and excitement. He spread the remaining lube and then got into position between my legs.

He reached past my head and grabbed a pillow and then worked it beneath my hips. The new position made me feel on display and even more when Phupha trailed his hungry gaze over my entire body.

I held my breath as he studied me. A bout of anxiety overcame me as I wondered if he liked what he was seeing.

While I'd never really given my looks much though as I'd gotten older,  I couldn't help but compare myself to the man who'd been lucky enough to have every part of Phupha... New.. the man who would always be a part of us no matter what the future brought.

"Tian..." Phupha said gently and I looked up, not even realizing I'd dropped my gaze.

"You're fucking perfect," Phupha said, the words sounding more like an order than compliment.

I managed a nod but that didn't seem to satisfy Phupha so I said, "I know you see me, Phupha. I know it."

To my relief, Phupha leaned over and kissed me hard.
"Tell me you want this,"

"I do," I said. "More than anything." I realized they were dangerous words to say, but luckily Phupha didn't seem to dwell on their double meaning and he leaned back and shifted his lower body until I felt his entrance on my hole.