I'll Kill You.

"crazy dedication"

      Dazai left Y/n feeling so much pain. Although they were supposed to hate each other, he wanted Y/n to like him for some reason. It wasn't just because his job was on the line, he actually wanted Y/n to enjoy being around him. 

    "I have literally been left scarred by you" "it's your fault Dazai"  those words were still fresh in his head and it made him realize how much anger and hatred Y/n had for him. When he was in the mafia, Dazai was really violent and the word 'mercy' was not in his vocabulary. It is suspected that he could be responsible for over 100 murders, and knowing his past, it wasn't hard to believe that he was capable of doing that. Never in Dazai's life would he think that being a former mafia executive would affect his relationships that much.

     When he got home, he took off his coat and vest before undoing his tie and unbuttoning his shirt. He went to the bathroom and undid his bandages. Underneath his bandages were the scars left from all of his previous suicide attempts. Usually he only attempted because he wanted to, but Y/n's words made him wanna attempt. 

   Dazai walked out of his bathroom and went to his kitchen to pour himself a drink. One drink turned into two, two turned into four, and four turned into eight somehow. It wasn't enough to numb the pain. He grabbed his coat and walked out the door. He made his way up to the roof and looked and the ground below him. It had to be at least fifteen floors and he knew that the fall would kill him. 

    Meanwhile at Y/n's, she stood in front of a mirror and looked at her scars. There was only a few instances where she got hurt while working for the government and they were only minor scars. What Dazai did to her ruined her beauty and she thought that no one would find her desirable with those scars. Not even she could've found herself desirable. As she was sitting on her bathroom floor, she got a text from someone. 

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Maybe: Akiko Yosano

Look what I found 👁️🍵👁️
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When did he take that 😟

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    The picture was of Y/n eating at the Chinese restaurant. She didn't even notice Dazai taking the picture, but that's what made it cuter. 

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Akiko Yosano

btw take it easy on dazai
he's trying his hardest to be better
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    Y/n had to agree with her, he truly was trying his hardest today, but Y/n was just cold towards him. She decided to call him to apologize about today, but it went straight to voicemail. The TV was left on and the news starting playing. "Breaking News! A young man has just jumped off of a 15 story building, as of right now, we don't know if he'll survive" the anchor said. 

   Y/n's eyes went wide when she saw the tan trench coat. It was Dazai. Without thinking, she ran out of her house wearing sweatpants and a hoodie and made her way to that building. She pulled the hood over her head and when she went to the scene, it was blocked off by the police. 

   She had to come up with a distraction quickly and she looked around. Y/n saw a huge sign that no one was under. Would it work? she asked herself. Without thinking it through much, she used her gift and cut it down. As soon as it hit the ground, it made a loud crashing sound and everyone was distracted from Dazai. This gave her enough time to get to him. She carried his bloody body on her back to the Armed Detective Agency. Although he was heavy on her back, she didn't care, she had to save him from whatever he did to himself. 

    When she got to the office, she put him in the infirmary and sat on the floor and called Yosano. "Y/n?" Yosano picked up quickly. "Can you come to the office...it's Dazai" Y/n said over the phone. "I'm on my way, is everything okay? Is he still breathing?" Yosano asked. "A little..but it's really bad" Y/n told Yosano over the phone. "Okay I'll be there in less than ten minutes" Yosano reassured Y/n. 

    When Yosano finally came, her eyes went wide looking at Dazai in that condition. His bones were almost all broken and his skin was scrapped from concrete and asphalt. She took a deep breath in, "he'll be fine." Y/n seemed less stressed out, but stayed until Yosano was finished. "He's okay, you can go back home and I'll stay with him" Yosano said to Y/n. She nodded her head and headed back home. 

    Yosano and Dazai stayed at the Armed Detective Agency for the night and Yosano fell asleep at her desk. The next morning, Dazai woke up and was confused. "Yosano?" he woke her up. She lifted her head up and looked over at Dazai. "Why am I here?" he asked. "You're a terrible person you know" she said to him. "What did I do?" he asked. "You just jumped off a building only for Y/n to carry you here late at night and beg me to heal you" Yosano explained casually. 

    Just by looking at his face, Yosano knew he felt bad. "You really know how drive someone insane" Yosano got up to get some coffee. She came back a few moments later and handed a mug to Dazai. "Stay here, you may be healed, but your body still needs to recover from the shock" she ordered Dazai. 

    After a few moments, everyone came to work and word got out about what happened last night. "It's crazy how the same person who hated him saved him in the end" Tanizaki said. "I mean we all work together so it's a given that she'd help him" Atsushi said. "You're right but she carried him on her back all the way here" Kunikida said. "...that's some crazy dedication" Ranpo said. 

   Meanwhile, she was conflicted. Y/n still wanted to kill Dazai, yet she was worried for him. She couldn't understand why she was conflicted, but tried not to question it.