Stay with me | Minsung

Part Of You

"look minho this one is cute!" said jisung excitedly while showing minho a light blue crop top.

"yeah it is, i think it would look so cool on you! You should buy it." Minho agreed and looked at some other clothes on the hanger.

"you know i can't Min..." Jisung carefully put the piece of clothing back and went off to another section.

"you can always wear it later when you feel comfortable enough." Minho told jisung and placed the blue top in his hands, giving him a kiss at the top of his head.

Jisung nervously scratched his hand just thinking about wearing it.

"don't stress it Ji." Minho noticed the scratching and stopped jisungs hand.

"I guess I'll buy it." Jisung said with a hesitant tone.

"good, now let's go get something to eat."

...

It's been two weeks since Jisung bought that crop top. He was staring at it in the closet for about five minutes now.

'maybe I can try it on?' he thought.

After he put it on he was still a little hesitant to look in the mirror, he slowly raised his view only to see tear up when he saw himself. Many things got better overtime as he started to recover but his body dysmorphia wasn't one of them yet.  He always hid his body and avoided mirrors.

'Is this how i look? No, no, no It can't be. Did i get fat?'

Ever since following the meal plan given by his doctor he had gained a few kilograms, now being almost at a healthy  weight. But he felt like everything he did was wasted now, all those skipped meals and hours of working out... Did he really loose all the progress he had? All these things were going throughout his head.
He was overwhelmed, it was too much and he lost to the desire to hurt himself.

As he was sliding the blade across his wrists again, there was a knock.

"Ji? I just got home, I got us some takeout for dinner." Minho was just behind the door. Jisung panicked and went to hide the evidence, Minho would surely be disappointed and hate him if he found out.

"yeah I'll be right there."

"is everything alright? Were you crying?" Minho asked because he could hear it in jisungs voice.

"no. I wasn't." Jisung answered as he was putting on an oversized hoodie. Then he opened the door and saw Minho smiling at him while happily showing jisung that he got their favourite takeout.

The two lovers went downstairs to eat. Minho looked so happy now, he'd always be so kind to Jisung and he always reminded him that he loves him. Jisung thought he doesn't deserve someone like him.

As jisung put the chopsticks up to his mouth, tears started wetting his cheeks. He felt bad about what he did earlier. Would minho forgive him?

"What's wrong ji?" Minho quickly stood up to crouch down near sitting jisung.

"I-I'm s-sorry!" the younger hiccuped.

"What are you sorry for? Did something happen?" Minho calmly asked while slowly stroking Jisungs thigh to calm him down.

Jisung didn't say a word, he just rolled up his sleeve to show minho.

"Oh..."

Then it was silent.

"I'm sorry Minho! Please don't be mad at me!" jisung whimpered.

"jisung, I'm not mad at you but please don't do this again. Just call me over okay?" Minho hugged Jisung

"o-okay"

...

While jisung was at his therapy appointment, Minho was talking to his mother about his recent issues.

"Mom i noticed they stopped working, i can't sleep at night ever since that situation with jisung, i feel so hopeless."
He was talking about his anti-depressants.

"I understand how hard it must be for you Minho, but you have to stay strong for Jisung. He needs someone he can rely on right now."

"I know but everytime i think he's getting better something like this happens... I don't want to say this but i feel like it's too much for me."
He admitted. He finally said it out loud.

His mother just looked at him understandingly.

"It's definitely a lot of responsibility and it's okay to feel like that, I'm sure it'll be over soon." she caressed her sons back while he cried.

...

"Ji come to the kitchen, breakfast is ready!" yelled minho from downstairs.

He heard a few steps and acknowledged that Jisung was there, but he still didn't look up at him.

"so i made you some avocado Toast today-"  Minho stopped mid sentence because he finally noticed what was jisung wearing.

"wow, you look very pretty" he immediately complimented the younger.

Jisung was wearing the light blue crop top, he paired it with a baggy pair of blue ripped jeans and added a silver necklace.

"thank you.." Jisung smiled shyly and looked down with his hands behind his back.

They both sat down at the counter to eat breakfast.

"Minho?"

"Do you think my scars are ugly?"

"No, they're a part of you and i love everything about you, but I'd rather you don't make more of them."

"don't worry, i won't" jisung reassured minho.

Afterwards they both put on their shoes and went off to school.

"Min, everyone is looking at me." Jisung said as he squeezed Minho's had. They were walking through the schools hallway.

People knew jisung very well from that incident, although it has almost been a year since it happened. It was the first time everyone saw him wearing something like that and openly showing his scars. They all turned their heads while walking.

"they're probably just looking at you because you are so beautiful! I won't let them though, because you're mine." Minho said proudly.

Both boys had to go to their separate classes, so jisung gave Minho a quick kiss on the cheek and cutely ran away so he'd make it on time.

Jisung got showered with compliments from his friends the whole day. Felix almost screamed when he saw jisung, apparently if he wasn't taken by Minho he'd date him. But not everyone was that nice, some students just straight up judged him and gave him disgusting looks  and some even said that he should cut deeper next time, he didn't tell anyone about that though.

Jisung cried in the bathroom during one class, luckily he had his phone and called Minho to help him calm down.

At the and of the day Jisung felt good, he was happy because he accomplished something that he couldn't even imagine a year ago and that was all because he had Minho with him.

A/n:
Hiii
I hope you're having a good day~
I know this chapter was still angsty but ill give you a hint that the next one might get steamy ;) talking about next chapters... This story doesn't have many left :') i actually already ended the original plot of this fanfic already so these few chapters are just spontaneously written heh. Anyways i hope you enjoyed and don't forget to vote ^^
Thanks for reading!