"Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone..." If You Could See Me Now~The Script
School without seeing Tadashi was...dull. I no longer looked forward to recess because Haru and Makoto would never be there, they always got in trouble with Mrs. Yoshiko.
So I would sit at the lunchbox table in front of the four-square court and stare at the players wondering if I should get up or stay seated. And I always stayed seated. Eventually I engulfed myself in books beginning to read stuff I had never bothered to pick up like Percy Jackson and Harry Potter. I finished both series before the middle of the school year.
As I watched the four-square players I saw Tadashi...and Maddie. Maddie was talking her head off and Tadashi was politely listening. If he was still my friend maybe I would've gone over there and said hi but he wasn't. I had never mentioned to Haru or Makoto how me and Tadashi weren't friends anymore. They rarely went to recess anyway. When they did by some twist of fate Tadashi was no where to be found.
Today was a lonely day. Again. Suddenly Maddie started to YELL at Tadashi! Tadashi looked hurt but I wasn't phased, this was his problem. She started to cry and stormed off leaving Tadashi to fiddle with his baseball cap...Justin.
If Justin had known Tadashi had ended our friendship he would have been furious. That gave me an idea. I got up and walked towards Tadashi.
"Hey Tadashi." I said casually.
He looked at me shocked and confused. I held out my hand. He looked at it confused. "I want the hat back, you promised to be my friend to Justin then he gave you that hat. I want it back." He remembered and sadly slowly gave me the hat.
"I know we won't be friends anymore, so don't expect the hat back."
"(F/N)..." He said trailing off. Hearing his voice after this long was in a way exhilarating but also irritating. But nonetheless I turned.
"Yes?"
"...I-" the bell rang drowning out his answer.
"What?" I asked.
"I'm sorry." He said.
His words made me freeze. I stared at him blankly. Expecting him to laugh and tell me he didn't mean it. But he just stared at me waiting for an answer. And I wasn't giving him one. I couldn't give him one.
How could I. After all this. After so long, of him leaving me behind only for...this. I heard a teacher yell for me to get to class. And then I saw Maddie...
"Hey Tadashi." She said. She saw me and glared.
"Excuse me...who are you?" She asked.
"I told you Maddie, it's (F/N)." Tadashi said.
After all this time he still made sure people knew my name. I held my tears and clenched the baseball cap tightly.
"Oh, well whoever you are can you go. You need to get to class don't you?" She asked me sassily. Something clicked in my mind and I snapped.
"Don't you have to go to. Tadashi is my friend too and you can't keep him for yourself. By the way do you know how annoying your voice is, because it seems to always give me a headache." I shut my mouth after processing what I said.
"Uh, Maddie?" Tadashi cut in.
Maddie looked at Tadashi and the tears sprung from her eyes. She ran off but not without yelling, "Go, if you like her better than me...fine! But she will never love you like I will!!"
I looked at Maddie's back as she stormed off. I suddenly understood why she didn't have many friends.
"She..." Tadashi trailed off at a loss of words.
"We better get back to class..." I said avoiding the subject completely turning towards the classroom.
"(F/N)..."
"Yes." I said dully. When I turned back he was crying. My eyes widened when I saw him cry. Tadashi crying? No. It made me regret leaving him behind not even asking why he had chosen to leave me.
He tried to get up but when he tried to walk he tripped and fell to the asphalt. I watched as he cried louder and the teacher aid looked at us suspiciously.
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to not be your friend. I'm not gonna put the blame on anybody else but myself, because I made the choice to leave you. It's all my fault. I missed you every recess, every time I saw you sitting there alone I wanted to go talk to you but I couldn't because Maddie was there." His tears fell to the ground and I couldn't help but feel all the hatred I had built towards him melt away.
I helped him up. His palms were scratched up and so were his knees. The teacher aid have him a note and told me to bring him to the nurse.
I was speechless as he cried on my shoulder. I had never thought I'd be the shoulder to cry on but here I am. I cared about Tadashi, I realize that now. We had to stop several times because he could not walk fast. The last time we had to stop he looked at me with watery eyes. I couldn't help but sympathize with him. This was me when he said he didn't want to be my friend. I was torn, now I realize that he had always been torn every time I wasn't around.
"Can we be friends again?" He asked.
I couldn't help but smile. "I thought you'd never ask." He smiled at my answer and hugged me tightly. I hugged him back just as tightly.
"I have one question." I asked.
"What's that?" He asked.
"Are you gonna leave me again?" I asked.
He shook his head. "Never, never ever ever."
I smiled and we walked smiling all the way to the Nurse.
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