delicate - jaylor fanfic - on hold because of the breakup

LA

** Tuesday June 20th, 2017 - 11 weeks and two days old (almost 3 months) **

- joes Pov -

"Mommy loves you Estelle. Mommy loves you" Taylor coos our daughter in the entryway to her LA home. She is on her way to film a music video but is having a hard time to let Estelle out of her sight. "You're such a good baby. Mommy wants to stay here with you all day, get all the cuddles."

"Taylor, I love you. But you need to head out now, so you get to set on time" I say and take Estelle from her reluctant arms. I'm going to be alone here with Estelle all day, but I don't mind. It's going to be weird to not have Taylor to lean on, but I've done it for a few hours before in Nashville. We are both her parents, so we obviously need to get used to being with her alone. It's not like we are always going to be able to be in the same room with her.

"But I want to stay here and cuddle her. Can't you see those chubby cheeks that just needs all the kisses. And her tummy that needs all the raspberries blown. She is going to miss her mommy, and I'm a terrible mommy that will spend the next few days hardly seeing her" Taylor pouts and try to reach for our daughter again.

"Love, you're not a terrible mom for working. She will be here when you get home, and ready for all the cuddles when you're done working. Until then she will be perfectly content with her daddy" I'm not going to mention the struggle it's going to be to make her take a bottle. She prefers Taylors boob, and I don't blame her. Those are so much softer than a bottle, and she gets an intimate moment with her mom that I'm sure most infants love.

"Fine but remind her that her mommy loves her" she comes closer and kiss both of us before she finally heads outside. It's taken a good hour for her to leave the house, where we spent the last half hour in the hallway trying to pry Estelle out of her arms. Before that she frantically went all around the house to make sure everything is perfect for us being here alone all day. God forbid the diapers weren't lined up perfectly or the milk organized just right in the freezer. I guess it's just mommy brain.

"Your mommy is crazy huh? But she loves you" I coo Estelle who gives me one of her irresistible smiles she started with two days ago. How I've gone my whole life without seeing it is a mystery, because now I want to see it for the rest of my life. She is such a cutie with a developing personality.

"Come on baby girl, we are going to do some tummy time before your next bottle" we head into the Livingroom here one of those baby blankets have already been laid out. Taylor ordered a padded mat with a pink elephant on it in a soft pastel color.

Laying her down on her tummy she tries to lift her head again, and she can do it for a few seconds but not too long yet. She will get there though; our little girl is determined. We spend some time on her tummy by giving her stuff to look at and hopefully she will start truly reaching for them soon.

Eventually I flip her to her back and start clapping her hands as I play patty cake with her. I've always found those baby games and nursery rhymes mostly annoying, but now they're a constant thing in our house. Patty cake can be a lot of fun when you do it with your own child.

** two days later ***

-Taylors Pov -

It's taken a while, but we are finally done with the music video filming. I've loved being back in the game and doing the job I love, but it's really hard being away from Estelle. I'm terrified that I'm going to lose out on a milestone because I'm emerged in work, but I need to accept it at some point. joe and I have jobs that demand a lot of attention and time, so we need to learn how to balance it all. However now that Estelle is here, she will always come first. If she needs me, I will drop everything and run to her. That's what makes the most sense to me, but I guess not every parent is like that. Some parents but their work ahead of their child, but that's not something I could see myself doing. There is no way I could concentrate on work if I knew Estelle needed me, and especially if Joe wasn't there either.