delicate - jaylor fanfic - on hold because of the breakup

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*** Wednesday September 28th - 12 weeks and 5 days pregnant **

- Taylors Pov -

"We have the result of the genetic testing. There are no markers for any of the chromosomic or genetic tests we tested for. It doesn't mean that there isn't still a chance the baby will have any of the conditions, but the likelihood is minimal after this test" she says, and I nod even though she can't see me. "That's good"

"We also have the gender if you want to know. Its highly accurate, but just like with an ultrasound it's no way to know 100% before the baby is born" we already decided that we wanted to know as soon as possible, so I put her on speakerphone so Joe can get the news at the same time as me. This is about to change things forever.

"Judging by the chromosome makeup you're expecting a little girl" she says, and I can't stop the grin from forming on my face. A little girl, we are having a baby girl.

Tears well in my eyes when I look over at Joe who seemingly is getting just as emotional as me. I quickly thank the doctor before hanging up and sinking into joes' arms.

"We are having a little girl" both of our hands rest on my little bump that's barely visible where our little nugget is growing.

It's amazing that technology makes it possible to know the sex of the baby earlier than what was possible only a few years ago. Science is always evolving, and I find it fascinating how they constantly figure new stuff out to further research and share it with the world.

Joe lays both of us down and I snuggle into his neck while he draws circles in my belly with his fingers. It's only a matter of time before we have a pooping, crying beautiful little nugget in our arms. We are no longer only responsible for us selves; we are responsible for raising a tiny human into a fully functioning adult. It's really a privilege, that's at least how I see it.

** Wednesday October 12th - 14 and a half week pregnant **

"This is a really bad idea" I say in the back of the car to Joe that's holding my sweaty hand. We are on our way to a king of Leons concert where we will meet up with some friends that invited me. I've hardly been out of the house for months, but now I'm going to be somewhere like this. I don't know how to feel about that. I also have a bump on my belly that's naturally growing since I'm further into the pregnancy.

"They will let us in the back and then we have a private view of the stage. Your friends took care of everything. Try to relax love" he says and squeeze my hand three times. I don't know why but it's really comforting for some reason.

"I'm just worried that someone will accidentally see my bump and then it will be front page news. I'm not ready for that yet" my hand is shaking in his, but I try to take deep breaths to calm myself. I can't stay stuffed in the apartment for the rest of the pregnancy, that's not healthy for me or the baby because I would be climbing the walls. But I'm just scarred of the media storm that would follow if it got out. It's not that I'm ashamed of my little nugget, I'm not at all. But I just worry it will further break my mental health. I need to be mentally strong to do this whole parenting thing. Growing a thicker skin is clearly something I need to get to work on asap.

"We are going to cover your head with the umbrella like you do so no one sees, and we are using the back entrance that's completely covered too. It's not 100% promised that people won't get pictures or see you, but it's as much as can be done. And if it gets out, I will be there with you. You're not doing this alone, lean on me love" he kisses my cheek and I lean my head on his shoulder for the rest of the ride.

I'm wearing a black dress and booties, but my jacket is oversized, so it mostly looks like I'm bloated if I don't take it off. If I take it off you can clearly see I'm pregnant though, there really isn't any hiding that anymore. Apparently, according to joe's app that he insists on using, the baby has moved from my pelvis and up into my lower abdomen which apparently is why its showing more and will continue to grow bigger. I have been having a slight bump for a few weeks which you could see if I was topless, but now you can see it with clothes too if I'm not covering up enough.