Rarl one-shots.

20|Reaso to hate.

Carl suffered for many things since the apocalypse began and he never imagined that he would also suffer for love.

He didn't expect it, he didn't want it and now he doesn't really know how to react.

He fell in love with Ron the exact moment he met him. He was in denial for a while, until all he could think about was how cute Ron was, how much he wanted to kiss or hug him.

How Carl wanted to be Enid...

Here was a fact that Carl was not unaware of, however much he wanted to try; Ron hates it.

Carl understands Ron, his father was taken from him in a second and as much as Pete was an idiot, he was still Ron's father and he still loved him no matter what. Carl heard about too many cases of domestic violence to know more or less how the minds of the victims worked. Shane explained it to him when he asked long before the apocalypse and was curious about one of his father's cases since it was about one of his school friends. The victim did not always realize that he was being abused, they even saw it as something normal or took it as an act of love. Carl wanted to try and explain this to Ron, but hopefully he was able to talk to him a couple of times without a fight since Rick killed Pete.

Carl wasn't a gossip person or anything, but before Pete was killed, Carl used to visit Ron's house a lot and had seen several of the scars on his body by accident. He also noticed the bottles of alcohol in the trash or the cigarette boxes. Maybe the fallen painting that was in perfect condition on the wall the day before... Or the makeup on Ron's face or the painful way he walked. There were so many things Carl could point out, but still Ron would never listen to him.

Ron attacked him in the basement, but Carl was fine with it. Ron was scared and he thought they were all going to die... Carl also felt that way when they lost prison, he said so many horrible things and did stupid things out of fear. He understands Ron, he doesn't judge him.

Then when they go up to a room, Carl pulls out his own gun and points it at Ron.

"Give me the gun. The butt was at me."

"Look, Carl... I, I'm so sorry..." Ron says and he really seemed apologetic.

"Yeah, I know. The gun."

Carl seriously knows. He was in Ron's place more than once.

Ron hands him the gun and Carl immediately puts it away.

"Look, I don't want to be harsh or cruel, but your father was an idiot."

Carl wants to tell him that he can help him get through this, to understand Pete's abuse, but he's not sure if Ron will understand.

For Carol it was the same. Ed was a jerk who always mistreated Carol and Sophia, until Shane beat him up and Carol ran to help him while he cried. This is how the mind of abuse victims worked in many cases and if Carol can get over it, then Ron can too and Carl is willing to help him.

"Ron, what Pete was doing wasn't right. You might think it was only like that when he was drunk or...A way of showing he loved them. But it wasn't. You can't raise your arm, right? Why? Do you really still think it was a form of love? Or the scars on your arms. Yes, I saw them and I'm sure you have more. Let me help you, I want to help you... Please."

"I don't want your pity. You don't know anything. Stay out..."

Ron doesn't look at him when he answers and Carl can see the pain in his expression and in his tone of voice.

"Are you still going to hate me? For telling the truth?" Carl didn't want his voice to sound so sad, but he did.

Ron looks at him for a second and rolls his eyes. That had hurt much more than Otis's shot...

"Okay...So sorry, maybe not much."

Carl doesn't give Ron much time to pay attention to his words or respond, because he reaches over, grabs his face and kisses him.

Carl has never kissed anyone before, so he's happy to kiss the only person he's ever liked in his life, even if he doesn't reciprocate.

Of course, Ron doesn't do anything; he doesn't correspond to the kiss, he doesn't push it, he doesn't move. Nothing...

"If you're going to hate me, then let me give you another reason."

Carl gasps and runs out of the room, slamming the door shut.

Ron's silence was all the answer Carl needed.

Ron was going to hate him forever and Carl would live with a broken heart about it.