The James Family

Plus one? (5)

After sometime Spencer was woken up by sniffles, his wife with a pillow covering her face trying to mask her cries. He watched her with his own tears running down his face trying to cry as silently as possible.

Dr Ramjee arrived in Olivia's ward at midnight. An hour later than her normal time. She walked in to a passed out Spencer on the chair and a restless Olivia, twisting and turning in bed.

"Mrs James how are you feeling?"

Spencer stirred in his sleep.

Before Olivia could reply she checked to see whether her husband was still asleep. And Spencer knowing his wife, he pretended he was still very much asleep with the intention of hearing how she really feels.

"How do I say I don't wanna live anymore without sounding suicidal....maybe empty, but that's an understatement but I definitely feel empty."

Spencer's heart dropped. He wished he could take the pain away.

"I'd advise that you and your husband attend a couples therapy session. And then take it from there. Your family is going through a very difficult time it's normal to feel helpless"

Olivia let out a small chuckle. "I don't know doc, we'll see".

"your body is responding very well to the medication you'll be discharged this morning. I'll see you then Mrs James."

"Thanks doc".

Shortly after both Spencer and Olivia fell asleep.
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Spencer woke up first and moved the chair closer to his wife's bed. Gently grabbing her hand and giving it multiple kisses. Physical touch and intimacy was their way of communicating in tough times.

Olivia slowly opened her eyes which were met by her favourite pair of eyes. A tiny smile spread on her face. "Hey" she said groggily And she squeezed his hand three times. A physical language for them which meant I love you. In return he kissed her hand four times which meant I love you too. "Hey" he responded softly.

A couple of minutes went by in comfortable silence. Reading each other's energy. Olivia's hand taking turns between running through Spencer's coils and gently caressing his face. And Spencer caressing and kissing her other hand. Suddenly Spencer stood up and positioned his head above her stomach. Slowly he bent down and gave it three kisses.

An emotional Olivia watched as he lifted his head up to meet with her teary eyes. He then moved up and kissed her forehead, her cheek and then softly pressed his lips against hers. As he was about to stand up straight she pulled him back to her. He then hugged her tight. And the tears just kept coming. Spencer didn't cry though, he was trying to be strong for his wife.

"It's okay baby, I'm here, we'll get through this together".

" how do we move past this James? I'm in so much pain it's unbearable. My heart aches so much I jus...."

Spencer interrupted her. "We'll get through it baby we have each other and that's more than enough". And he let go, seeing her look like that broke him. He was worried about many things but most importantly her sobriety. She's pregnant though so she won't do that to us. He thought to himself.

"Shhhh...I got you...I got you babe" he said hugging her tightly. And she sobbed in his arms. She sobbed so much she was shaking uncontrollably. And it hurt Spencer so much cause all he could do was just comfort her and not take the pain away from her.