Keep the memories Alive

Chapter 1

You want to know why I tried to kill myself? Where I've been all this time but first why I tried to kill myself right? It's like this line is drawn somewhere in the world and if you never cross it. You'll never consider throwing yourself off a building. The truth is I felt his presence. I knew he will save me. He will never let me leave this world because of him. I always believe that he is there to save me but situations changed, now he is dead?

Looking back, I began to unravel the day I met him. One memorable afternoon. I was at a café reading my favorite novel, "You Reached Sam," when I heard him outside with his gang, speaking in what I assumed to be Korean. The manner he spoke to his companion really caught my attention. I can still picture his brown eyes gazing in my direction with a quirky, kind smile and a tinge of mischief. I hate the impact of his smile on me. I don't get turned on easily, but this guy prevented me from reading, which is unusual given how engrossed I am in my book.

Back to the past

"Congratulation Huang Mashie on your graduation" Ethan shouted, looking at his thick brown hair, high cheekbone definitely good-looking.

I asked Bomin, my best friend "who is that handsome guy?"

"That is your boyfriend with his family" Bomin answered, feeling annoying since I don't bother to consider her poor single heart

The sun was shining but hadn't yet had time to warm the air. I felt relieved to see him. Warmth that had nothing to do with the weather spread across my cheeks seeing Ethan Lee: dressing formally with ties and tuxedo.

"Thank you, you look so handsome today," I said with a smile, knowing how hard he had worked and how much internal debate he had. Ethan Lee is a laid-back person. He simply wears jeans and a T-shirt. The first night we were formally dating was prom. He was dressed in navy jeans and a white shirt that showed off his abs. Regardless of what he is wearing, Ethan is always the center of attention.

"This is the only time I'll let him wear a tuxedo, so Mashie better take lots of photos" Ethan's older brother Nathan cut in.

"He takes longer than his mum," Ethan's father, Mr. Chen Lee, teased.

"Since everyone is here, let's take some pictures." Ms. Lee stated

"Thank you for changing the subject, mom; they ruined my initial impression." Putting his hand on my back, Ethan instructed me to go to the center.

My second family is like Ethan's family. They have been really kind to me and treat me like their daughter ever since I went to Seoul, South Korea. Due to the distances, my family was unable to attend. Since I'll soon be visiting them, I don't mind at all.

Ethan and I decline to join the family meal after the photo shoot. We stayed in his room.

"What's this?" I said, opening the box

"Don't open it" he said, closing it back "farewell gift"

"Open it when I am gone alright" he added

Instead chatting about the box, I attempted to concentrate on it. In a week, Ethan Lee will fly to Indonesia. Even though I keep telling myself it's just a year, I find it difficult to be apart from Ethan for so long.

"Let's not speak about it, okay? It's my graduation night," I pleaded

"Whatever you say, Sunshine, but I'm taking the box away from you" he grinned.

"Why...... stop being an ass" I shouted

"It will be with my mom, when I left, she will give it to you" he reminded

Ethan lost his trust since I open my birthday gift earlier because he needs to go to Busan for exam so he will miss my birthday.

Gosh, he was insufferable. He still remembers it. "Why did I even date you?" I shouted again