Love Is Not For Me

Part 18

They both were standing in front of Y/N's appartment, they went inside,it was not classy but modern house, though Y/N had enough money to buy an appartment like what celebs likes to live in but she likes it simple yet beautiful, though it was not classy but it was aesthetic because of the way she decorated it with simple yet mind-blowing art pieces.

Taehyung was feeling some positive & peaceful vibes from there.

Y/N was teasing him to much & was not ready to let him come with her, but he did everything to come with her, though they both knew at the end they will be at her home but they were enjoying their little moment, teasing eachother, funny argument and at the end comming there together.

"Wanna freshen up?" Y/N asked to make him feel comfortable.

"Uuu no it's okay, I have to return to the hotel & I'll be going back to Korea in the midnight so..." Taehyung said awkwardly, it's not that he was feeling uncomfortable but he was nervous about telling her that he would go back & they didn't even talk to eachother much,so he was just nervous about her reaction.

She just nodded but he knew she didn't like that idea.

"Okay I'll be back... please make yourself comfortable" she said to him and went to take a shower.

She was thinking about what he said under the shower,it would be okay if she tells him not to go?
She took a short shower and came out.

He was looking at a painting then he looked at her & he was amazed by her 'no make up on' look ,she was looking like the main character from a romantic fairy tale.

After few seconds she fake coughed looking at here and there so he came out from his fairy tale and looked back at the painting.

"You like to paint?"He asked looking at it, amazed.

"No... I mean yes but no" She answered making her confused.
She smiled and sat on the couch.

"If you ask me I like to paint or not? It's a yes, yeah I like it but I never learnt about it so I just paint what comes in my mind at the time, I know paintings have meanings and more things I don't even have any idea about,so I just do it for myself, without meaning, without rules, just me and my thoughts".She said looking infront of her at the empty wall,he sat beside her.

"Not everyone got everything they want". She said looking at him smiling, but he knew it was not smile,it was something to hide the pain,he didn't say anything just listened to her, it's not that you have say anything to comfort someone, sometimes people needs a good listener too.

"From my childhood I was attracted to all types of arts, like dancing, singing, painting, acting and more, but never got any changes to learn those, except singing, though I learnt it after being adult, I belonged to a middle class well reputed family, you know what is the worst about them? Even though you don't have money, you have to maintain your so called prestige, their half of lives goes on doing acting that they are being okay that what they really are not ". She said & after few seconds again started,
"I used to request my parents to do things I wanted to do, but they always took it as my childish demands, I used to do dramas in my nursery school, I even got prize for painting, I danced one or two times though people prised us but we had to listen too many things from teachers for our steps and one of them even body shamed me,my friends were upset about that too but at the end noone is noone's.I liked these but for music I used to feel something, like if I didn't do this then I would be finished" She said & was trying to keep her normal voice but he could sense something that he thought he stopped feeling for anyone.

"I started to learn music because of un expected thing happened, I used to be a girl who never did anything without her parent's concent and want them to support me but who knew I was just running after a Mirage. My father was cheating on my mother and at first when we got to know we saw the real face of that man whom I thought a real hero.
I didn't talk to him for few days but I was living in his house, eating his foods and even was carrying his name,
My mother convinced us to talk to him tho we didn't want to we had to.We thought maybe he'll change but who we were fooling!
After that we got to know that he was even worst.
We hided it from my mother cause if we told her about it she would create a thing that she couldn't even solve, she would be broken but she was definitely not gonna leave him and at the end we would be at blame like before." She said looking down,

"She was so naive, that her children were also fooling her for their motives" She said taking a deep breath.

"I'm so pathetic YK,a selfish pathetic girl who always standed for her self-respect but when it comes to her selfish dream she killed her self-respect" She said looking up, looking at him with teary eyes & a painful smile.

"It's okay "He said trying to comfort her,he was doing things he even never imagined he would do again.

They both hugged each other for few minutes then he rubbed his thumb on her cheeks to remove the tears.
He didn't say anything to comfort her except that 'it's okay' but his hug was everything.

She was carrying burdens in her heart for a long time and finally there was someone to listen her.

"Now I don't talk to him, I talk to my mother and sister but not him, I sent him everything he needs as he was my father and I can't denie that", She said normally
"But I still can't forget that we hided it from my mother cause we needed not only food and shelter but also money to afford a dream". She said & hold her hands and looked into her eyes,

"It was not your fault to follow your dream,it was not your fault that your mother didn't do anything when at first you told her about your father,it was not your fault that what your father did, and whatever you hide from your mother for financial support that your father was obliged to do for his children,so it was okay... & I don't want to know more, when you'll say I'll listen so don't think to much low of yourself, you know you are being guilty for something you never did... sometime it is okay to let people do whatever they do". He said looking at her, there was silence for few seconds, there were more things he wanted to say like her but they both just felt the understanding between them and the connection between them, they would take it slow, no rush...

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Oh finally!

This part could be little sensetive for some people.

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