Love Is Not For Me

Part 41

They came back to Seoul four days ago and became busy with work again, Taehyung was busy with his new album and Y/N was doing all the left works before she went back to her homeland,

"Taehyung what are you thinking? You seems distracted?" Asked him the composer with whom he was working,

Taehyung smiled and nodded,"I'm thinking about someone but don't worry that will even help you with the work"Taehyung said smiling,

"I see"The composer said little too amazed by how Taehyung often smile now days unlike previous years but he decided not to say anything and they both continued working,
At the weekend Taehyung and Y/N decided to spend time with eachother, they cooked and watched movies and sung together and at night they watched the sky talked about so many things they still feel excited to know about eachother,
When they went to bed, they decided not to do it but Taehyung was hard only by looking at her back and neck,he tried to calm himself but at the end it didn't work,
Y/N felt like something is happening so she woke up and saw him struggling ,at first she was flashtered and then laughed but at the end only she could calm himself, she did, with her hands, she was not good but he doesn't care about that because only looking at her he could get hard hundreds of times and could cum too.

They slept after sharing few kisses.

At the morning,
Y/N was in bathroom, after taking bath she was wearing her clothes, she wore her panty then her bra,she was feeling every moment of that bath remembering last night's activity,and their last day at Jeju Island,thinking about it she got butterflies in her stomach,she smiled feeling little turned on but bad luck she got her period & she was not comfortable doing it in her periods.

Suddenly she felt something behind her back,it was a hand, his hand, she turned around to saw him wearing only his shorts and remembered he was wearing a t-shirt too & understood his intention.
That smirk on his face was another clue of that, she again turned around to pat her hands and then started to dry her hair with towel, taking it all in her left side.
She felt him kissing her back softly so she just felt a electricity on her whole body.
"What are you doing?"She asked knowing what exactly he was doing.
"Eating the sweetest back ever"
He said making her laugh then she turned around and looked at him in his eyes,"I'm on my period"she said smiling and his face was shocked at first then it changed to little sad then turned it too a concern one.

She was looking at him reading his every reactions
"Are you okay?"He asked with concern and she just nodded and continued to dry her hair,
"I think I have to do something to stop your period for few months"he said smiling but she didn't get it,
"What will you do?"she asked shockingly.
"I'll Just put a baby inside of my baby"he said smirking and her face turned shocked at first then it looked like a tommato, seeing her face he started to laugh.

"You want a baby with me?"She couldn't help but ask,he stopped laughing and looked at her like he was seeing the moon.
"Huuum"he nodded still looking at her,she was wearing her pants,

"Your fans will be mad"she said after zipping her denim, with a funny tone,
"They will be happy seeing a little version of us"He said making her smile.

"So you want to marry me?"She asked hopefully but listening her his face harden & it didn't go unnoticed by her,
"What happened Tae"She asked not knowing what just happened to him.
"Are you okay?"she again asked & this time he just nodded looking down,she studied his face for few seconds,

"You don't want to marry me?"she asked & he looked at her then looked away.

"What happened Tae? Are you really don't want to marry..."She didn't finish her sentence reading his face and realising what it exactly mean.
"Oh my God..."She said in a law voice grabbing her own hair,

"You want a baby but you don't want to marry me,are you kidding me?!"she said getting angry,he didn't say anything.
"What I..."she couldn't even form a sentence as her mind was becoming mess.
"You know what type of girl I am, it's maybe old fashioned to you but not for me, it's not that I desparately want to marry someone but I couldn't have baby without marriage, it's not my thing"she said clearly,he was silent and that was making her insane.

"It's not that I don't wanna marry you, I just need some times... I'm not just comfortable with this marriage thing",He said looking at her,

"Is it something connected to your past?she asked,

"We'll talk about it later"Taehyung said not wanting to talk about it.
"No... I want to know it now, just tell me about your past that it couldn't effect on our present"she almost yelled at him but he didn't say anything.It was enough for her,

"Okay you don't have to tell me anything",she said coming out from bathroom,he followed her silently.
She wore her tshirt and and combed her hair roughly then took her pouch,
"Where you are going?"he asked but she didn't reply and walked past him,
"Baby do everything but don't dare to ignore me"he said like it was an order, grabbing her hand,she looked at him with her angry eyes .
"I'm going to the company"She said calmly
"Then we'll go together, give me 5 minutes"he said & was about to turned around,
"No need... I can go by myself as I have to live alone at the end "she said looking at his eyes and he could feel that she was hurt & angry,he closed his eyes and took deep breath, and she looked away.

"I'll tell you everything but please give me some times"He said and she looked at him trying to understand him, trying to connect with him and listen to everything he never told her, but for sometime she felt so exhausting to stand there for another second.
She went outside from the room not saying anything,
He just looked at her and her going out,he continued starring at blank ,he was alone,once again.

After few minutes,he came outside and saw her sitting on the couch, looking down at her hand, she was busy in her own thoughts,he came infront of her and knelt down taking her hand in his palm, she was shocked at first,then saw it was Taehyung,

"What are you doing right now?" She asked with a calm voice, but that gave him chills,he looked at her eyes and with another hand he touched her cheeks,

"Sorry" He said and she didn't say anything, not even looking at him,

"I'll be glad to be punished for making you feel...the way I did"He said looking at her now,
"I'm sorry for making your life tough but believe me I can't even let you go & say that I'll be okay,at this point-" he said and paused,"I'm even afraid to say that, because I know I can't live without you"
She saw him smiling,it made her eyes moist,

"I'll be breathing, but not living" he said smiling more than now she felt like she would cry out in no time,his smile was never this painful and heart aching before,
She cannot stand it and she started to feel guilty for what she did to him, she thought how could she be so childish, how could she!?

She hugged him so tightly and he sat in a uncomfortable position and started laugh softly because she started to cry like a child,

"My legs are not gonna live long, please let me stand first"He said laughing and making a funny painful voice but she didn't listen until she was calmed again.

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How are you all doing?

Sorry for late again...

One thing I want to clear is the way characters think have nothing to do with writer or Idols... it's just the way they are made by the writer and in this world there are lots of types of people and we all are different like our thoughts so characters are too, hope you understand...

See you soon!

But there is one task for y'all ,
you guys have to remind me to update in comment section, I literally forget ,as today I saw someone asking for update so I did as it was already written one month ago.