"I hope i become deathly ill."
As a child
I hoped,
Prayed,
Obsessed,
That a terrible misfortune
Would fall upon me.
I wanted to see how many people
Truly did care for me.
I wanted to be seen,
I wanted people to notice me,
Even if it was for the wrong reason.
I wanted people to reach out to me,
To check in on me.
I suppose this,
In and of itself,
made me sick,
Because a person
Should not
Desire to fall ill.
